The best way to fall, is in love with me ;)

Happy Birthday to me!

Happy Birthday to me!
Happy Birthday to me!
Happy Birthday to myself
Happy Birthday to me!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ME!

Hahaha. I'm 16 years old now~! Getting older and older as the years passes by.

Yesterday, the whole of 4e3 sang me a Happy Birthday song. Thanks! I didnt want them to know. haha. But too bad they knew it anyway.

Exactly after 12 am last nite, I received many Birthday wishes frm all my frenz.

Djah was the first one to wish me Happy Birthday on 27 January itself. haha! She called me. It was unexpected la. Thanks kak. =P

Evelyn was second, she chatted with me frm 11 50? till 12. haha. than wished me. Thank you.

Soon it was Jac, she msged "..happy birthday hafiz! so fast 16 alr. (; pls study hard and dun look at chio girls too much. <3. haha". Thanks Jac.

Than it was none other than my abg angkat, Hidayat! He msged "Happie birddae to u brudda! Welcome to earth 16 years ago! Haha! All e best in lyf. =)". Haha! Pantat kau. anw thanks dok.

Around 1 min later, Zhong Wei wished me happy birthday on msn! Thanks Zwei.

I thought it ended there last nite. But after quite a while it was Xue Peng's turn! He msged "Happy birthday :-) wish all your wish to come true xD" Thank you XP! Where's my windows? haha. Kidding.

Next it was unexpected. Sharina msged me. "dude, happy bdae. u're alrdy 16, for the past 35 mins so YEAH! hahas. dah leh tgk nc16 show seh without any worries. action ah tu. menyampah aku. whatever to u=P". Haha. Pantat kau. tak salah pe. everyone will be 16 one day. haha! Anw maceh Sharina. =)

2 mins later .. Kwok Yong conversation box suddenly appeared wishin me happy birthday too! Thanks fren.

Tony also wished me through msn. I asked him hw the hell he knew it was my bday. He said through my msn nick. haha. Paiseh. Thanks Tony.

Wahaha. at 01:26:08, Abg bibik msged! He was the first among my sedare mare. He msged "Helo Brader! Am I the 1st? He he... Hapi berfdae 2 u! Hapi berfdae 2 u! Hapi berfdae 2 Hafiz! Hapi berfdae 2 u! Slamat malem! =oP" Terime kasih banyak2 bradder.

Kevin also msged me at 7:44:52 am. haha! He said "Happy birthday my friend.... 16 alr.. stop see gals.. lol anyway wish ur pearlyn will celebrate wif u.. haha.. she live near toa payoh so go there look for her if u r free... haha" lols kevin. haha. Thanks!

When I was having breakfast, Nona wished me through msn. She said "Happy birthday! Hope all ur wishes come true. U're a good fren. take care". Hahah. I think i missed out something she said. Not sure. But I think I was attracted to u last time cause of ure sweet words that praised me a little too many. hehe. Anw thanks Nona!

I was about to continue with my breakfast and Akasha came online. I knew he was gonna wish me. haha. And guess what he did. HAHA. He even send me a teksi. woops. Testi. hahaha! Thank you very much!

Shao Xing added me a testimonial too! Thank you!

Yue Wen too came online and wished me Happy birthday. He said he forgot to get Pearlyn's number for me. haha. I didnt ask for it anw! Thanks for the bday wish but no thanks to help me get pearlyn's number. ;)

Bashirah was next! She said" Happy birthday to u fizzy! hope ure more matured THAN u are now." hahaha. Thanks Bashirah AKA Hannah Montana. Sorry but u just look like her. No offence =).

Jolene also wished me! She said" Happy birthday! PEARLYN!" Omg. What was that pearlyn for. haha! Shes just cute nothing more ok? haha. Anw, thanks Jojo. hehe.

Ian was the latest. He wished me through msn saying " HAPPY BIRTHDAY DUDE! Go Liverpool! haha" Thanks Ian. It's been a long time since we talked! =)

Too all the rest wishing me through ur pm's and yesterday, thank you very much. It's appreciated. haha. Love you all. Muakss! Kisses! Huggs!

And as usual on my birthday, I lack presents. hahaha! I dun even think of getting one. Tak yah susa2. haha. Lain kali nak kasi, kasi je. haha!

Ok I shall stop here. I hope I have a good day ahead. hahah! Once again thanks to all. Cyah!

Welcome home mum!

Welcome home Mum! =)

She's back! Yeah! Feels so great to have her back home safe and sound.

She bought many things! She even bought chocolates, chewing gums and many2 more la. Hahaha. I'm having sore throat right now. Sigh. Cant sing! I hate it la. Cant eat too many chocolates and sweets.

So there's cca tmr! Wth! The day I dun wan to have cca is the day I must attend cca cause its the first session this yr. Must get as much attendance as possible. Must get a good testimonial at the end of the year. And I hope I dun get an advanced bday bash tmr! All my friends are planning to bash me up. Haha. Come and get me if u want to guys! I probably wont be free on saturday.

So I will try to find a way away from Hidayat! He's gonna bash me like nuts if he sees me. Last year's bruises were already in the "museum". Dun wanna add more there. hahaha! History wont repeat itself.

I'm gonna miss my 15 year old days! It just rocks. haha. And its time for sweet 16! I hope its gonna be better. Anw, I'm gonna go continue my revision on maths. There's a test tmr. There's also a malay test. But the sad thing is POA is the last period for tmr. Boring la!

Ok gtg now. Updating again soon. Tatas. Muakss. Love2. hahaha.

But Why

I wrote this song and this is the third song for H.Boys. Recorded a sample of it. Ask me for it if u wanna hear! Enjoy! =)

But Why - H.Boys
[Verse 1]
Everyday I think of you
Every moment you're in my mind
You're as if a dream come true
If only you were mine

When you're not around
I kept craving for you
I'll wait till you come
I need you right here now

[Chorus]
But why did you try to stay away from me
But why do you always seem to ignore me
After all I've been through
I knew things will just not be the same
Oh why did you do this to me

[Verse 2]
Everytime I look at you
You remind me of someone new
There were times, you haunt my dreams
It seems like those things were real

When you're not around
I kept craving for you
I'll wait till you come
I need you right here now

[Chorus]
But why did you try to stay away from me
But why do you always seem to ignore me
After all I've been through
I knew things will just not be the same
Oh why did you do this

I know that there's just nothing wrong
It's between you and me to make the choice
It seems like you don't care anymore
But I still do, cause ure my only one

[Chorus]
But why did you try to stay away from me
But why do you always seem to ignore me
After all I've been through
I knew things will just not be the same
Oh why did you do this me
But why did you do this to me ....
Why did you do this to me ...

Tough week coming up!

This coming week is gonna be a tough week to cope with. Sigh. Too many test. Everyday there will be at least a class test! This excludes the tons of homework I had for this weekend. I think by the time I finish doing my hwk there will be very little time to study for the tests! Stupid teachers! Told us about the test almost at the very last minute!

The thing that makes it worse is that next week there will be a change to the timetable. Some of the test are also rescheduled! Its so confusing! I have no idea which test is on which day except for POA, Geog and Maths. There will also be 3 malay test next week for 3 days. Miss Peh also said earlier this week to study up on Mechanisms cause she wanted to have a mock test for that topic AND MY NOTES ARE STILL WITH JULMAWAN! WTF LA! Luckily both Physics and Chem test are on the following week.

So there goes all the test I could think of right now. I still have Malay, DNT, Maths, English and Science hwk yet to be done.

On thursday the school brought us to Ngee Ann Polytechnic's open hse for us to see what courses there are and we could ask about many other things like cca's that are available there. The teacher's aren't considerate enough to let us hand in our homeworks after at least a few days. Instead many teachers gave us hwks and expected us to complete all of them by the next day! WTH la. Went to the poly till like 6 than had to go home by OURSELVES with still many hwks to be done and I reached home at around 7 40?? Too tired to concentrate on my hwks. So I did only my malay corrections and go to bed. I didnt care about the rest. If the teachers ask just give them the reason that I'm tired the night before.

But going to the polytechnic was fun. Hahahah. Saw a lot of u know! But not many la. hahaha! There was one before the watching video part. Omg! She was so beautiful. hahaha! I was like " Joshua! Joshua! " with my eyes pointing at the ambassador. Joshua didnt understand what I was referring to. INSTEAD Mr NG came to me and said "You see, if u study hard can go to schools like this right?" with a smile on his face! OMG. He knows what I was referring to la! hahahaha! Naughty Mr Ng!

After looking around at the courses that are offered in that school, my friends and I went to look at the cca's to see what kind of cca's there are of course! There are too many of them. We even watched the performance of some bands there. Its nice la. Amazing. I like the drummer. He goes crazy! Hahaha. I saw some of my primary school friends too. Than Hidayat called and asked me where I was. I told him to msg me cause I cant hear a single thing. Hanged up the phone and turned around. Saw Sharina so I went towards her. She was like surprised to see me. haha. I told her I was looking for Hidayat and she pointed to the side. OMG! It was stupid la. We were like so near and couldnt find each other. haha. Ali was there too. Saw Zae too. The girl that was with Hidayat all the time. She looks like my makcik la. Hahaha.

So I went home with Hidayat and Ali at around 5 30. Ali alighted at orchard. I went to popular at TP with Hidayat to buy foolscap and pen. He treated me Mars cause he got no bday present to give me. Asal tak Mercury ke, jupiter ke, neptune ke, saturn ke ataupun earth. hahaha!

Than we waited for 139 frm 6 20 till 6 55! Saw my friend at the queue too! They said they waited like frm 6 and the bus left at 6 55. What was the bus driver doing?!

Btw, I made a horny joke about the DNT theme for O levels which is Manipulation. hahahaha! Made people laugh a lot. Who knows maybe I am the horniest guy in class. haha. Ok but it was just to motivate my frens about the HARD topic la. Seriously. hahahaa! Not motivate them to do such stuff of course! haha.

I shall stop here. Off to homeworks! cyah! =)

Horny? Nah

AMAZING! Today, the first thing that happened in school is that MR NG YK called me up for form teacher's ICM! I thought I was gonna have a hell out of that time. But it wasnt to be. He was like so nice. Ask me hw's my day, what am I going through everyday and all sorts of stuff related to my daily life. haha. It was like so fun talking to him. He made my day la. Seriously.

So today had quite many lessons but lesser than what I have on Tues and Thurs of course. During PE the whole class ran the bumble bee track again. It was fun la. I feel like running many more rounds. haha. Than had to do long jump. Omg I hate that sand which stinks.

During POA Mr Ng gave that bloody attitude he has towards teaching. But he was like so nice when I talked to him in the morning. hahaha. He gave us 2 pieces of hwks! Damns I hate hwks a lot. But who cares I shall do it. Hahaha. He told me to motivate myself to study everyday. Wahaha. It was kind of weird that I remember what he told me. Cause I usually hate him a lot. I dun listen to him all the time until today. Ahhh cmon its just so weird. hahaha.

Andre told me a stupid joke today. Hahahahhahaha! Made me laugh like hell in class.

The joke: Ur mother so fat! When she jumps onto the weighing machine, her handphone number come out! HAHHAH. and there was another one which is ; ur mother so fat, when she jumps into the sea, the whales sings "we're a family". HAHAHAH!!!

And the most unwanted part of the day was the last 5 mins. My class received this worksheet about strengths and weaknesses and we had to fill it in. Some of us couldnt so Miss Peh told us to volunteer ourselves if we do not noe what our strengths or weaknesses are. So I volunteered myself.

Guang Hann said "He is cute" Hahaha.
Jze Hue said "He's a nice guy" if I'm not wrong"
All of a sudden Maxim SHOUTED "He's a HORNY PERSON"

So Miss Peh was shocked to hear that la. She ask me whether I am a horny guy. I said NO obviously! Maxim was the one who is horny la! Keep talking to me bout horny stuff. Hahaha. Miss Peh continued. She said "Oh no Hafiz, tomorrow I'm gonna talk to you during ICM period to find out hw HORNY you are." WTF MAN! hahaha!

Kevin replied to Miss Peh "Miss Peh be careful. Later he rape you"

I was like keeping all the vulgarities I could think of at that moment. WTF la Maxim! Now the whole class thinks I'm horny! Idiot! hahah.

So if tmr I have to go for ICM again, wah its just so boring la talking to teachers about some stuff. hahaha. It's all because of Maxim! Maxim!!!!!!!!! Hahas....

Btw .....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! I miss you so much!

This is the first time you're away when it's ur birthday. I couldnt sleep well last nite. Tears rolled down my cheeks when I think of you. It's been so long since I shared with you what happened in school and all those stuff. Whatever it is I hope you come back safely. Love you!

Another day in school

Ok so it was just another "wonderful" day in school. Boring la. But I see that Monday is the best day la. Onli 4 subjects on this day itself. Unlike other days where there are many subs.

Mrs Suneeth class was the funniest of all. hahaha. She said something and the people made fun of it. Today she talked about conflicts in friendships. So she picked some of us to share the conflicts to the class. Mrs Suneeth also said that if she was given 2 choices of teaching in an all guys school and all girls school, she would rather pick the all guys school. hahaha. The reason she gave was that girls are much more sensitive than guys. haha. She even showed examples. hahaha!

Than after 2 periods of english, it was DNT. Had to copy lots of notes and sketching too. Miss Peh also praised me a little too much la. hahaha. She said "look at Hafiz, he's so quiet there. His hair is always short. His handwriting is very neat some more." Than someone said that I'm short or something and I could not hear it. Miss Peh replied to him "He will grow taller!" Hahaha. Everyone was like looking at me. Omg la!

So after another 2 periods of DNT it was recess. Hahaha! Went to look for chiobu after eating AS USUAL with the bunch of crazy frenz. Saw this beautiful girl sitting down there. hahaha. WTF la! Always find girls. haha. Everyday sure nvr fail to find chiobu. hahaha!

This year is very diff. It's like most of us are interested in somebody including me of course. hahahha. Even Jac is interested in this guy frm the same malay class as me but I dunno hw to spell his name OMG! Jac I'll help u someday. hahaha! He's so handsome la Jac! But even if he's handsome, IF his attitude sucks than what for u go after him. But I think he's a good guy. hahaha!

Well whatever it is lets hope for a better tomorrow. =)

Life sucks!

Life sucks!
Life sucks!
Life sucks!
Life sucks!
Life sucks!
Life sucks!

Ok that's what I think of life in a way that I should not be thinking of. I'm going through extreme stress right at this very moment. How can I bear to just be alone for a few months? You're the closest friend I have in school. What is this? I noe that I am torturing you if I would not let u calm urself for a few months. But on the other hand you are torturing me as much. Sigh. You just don't understand!

I didnt know why u kept denying that u had feelings for me. Somehow I know that u do for quite a long time but I could not just tell cause u did not tell me YOURSELF. I've been through love before so I knew.

I don't mind anybody who has feelings for me. It should be appreciated. Maybe telling you that I like someone else was my biggest mistake towards you. I tried hard to keep it frm u cause I didnt wanna hurt u. But it took that one day to accidently let u noe that I preferred someone else. My mind was filled with too many school's stress! Frm the bottom of my heart I'm sorry.

To Yat, maybe ure just too kind to be a person. That's why many appreciated ur care and concern. That's why they returned u the love they have for you. Being a good person isnt a problem. Maybe ure born to be like that and I'm born to be like this. We have different fates. Not all the things goes our way. So just be patient and continue to be what you are cause everyone is different in their own ways.

I'm getting a "wonderful headache". Too many things to be done with these things happening around. It's just UNWANTED. But sometimes, u have no choice but to go through it.

Sighs! Haiz

Ok so nobody's to blame. But a third time couldnt be a mistake could it?

I tried my best to try and keep it. But it just seem that someday, someone will leak it. I feel down right now. I failed to keep it. I failed to achieve what I wanted! I'm so unhappy with myself. But some things which might happen could just hurt me more. I want to do it. But I feel that it's not going to happen. Some ppl just don't give others a chance.

I wonder when, how and where I COULD find the opportunity now with the chances so slim. And I wonder when I could be finding another new opportunity in future if this one slips away from my hands. I had it at my fingertips until today. Now I feel that I wont get the chance to do it. My aim was just to do it myself! I dun care what the replies or responses are. At least I noe that I have some faith in doing things myself.

It just isnt the right time to tell. I was waiting. Waiting for the moment. I'm disappointed with myself! I just hope that they keep their promises. If they dun keep it, their not true frens to anyone and i mean anyone. But true frens sometimes have the tendency not to keep their promises too.

Whatever it is, I just hope that nothing goes wrong. It's not in my hands now.

I always tell myself " Ape2 yang terjadi ade hikmah di sebaliknye" =)

Stupid day!

Liverpool LOST!!!!!! LOST!! LOST!!! 1-3!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH. NO WAY! DAMN F**KING ARSENAL! Arsenal attacked 3-5 times and got 3 goals! Liverpool had almost 20 shots and only managed to put 1 in. Fucked up game! I want revenge!!!! Liverpool must BEAT Arsenal this coming Tuesday night! THEY CANNOT LOSE 2 GAMES IN A ROW AT ANFIELD!!!!!! Ahhh fuck! I felt what I felt last year on 9th March 06 when they LOST at ANFIELD against Benfica that ended their reign as European Champs. THIS YEAR THEY LOST AT ANFIELD AND THAT ENDED THEIR REIGN AS FA CUP HOLDERS! Fuck!! Why must it all end at Anfield! It just hurts! To see Liverpool lose at home is like WTF! Liverpool only lost once at Anfield for the WHOLE of 2006! This year's gonna be different!! But one thing to keep in mind and that is, THINGS CHANGE.

So yea this is the first weekend after school reopened. Got a few homeworks already! Ahhh. Still not done yet. Gonna do it later in the afternoon. Gotta do some revision too. Cant waste time cause everything will be tested in the mid yr exams.

Yesterday had a damn hell boring day at home. Djah thought me something which I really couldnt understand much. But what I've got to say is that words don't do any action and action speaks more than words.

Ahhhh. I can't write anymore! I still cant believe that Liverpool lost la. Fuck. Liverpool suck when they come from behind but are so superior when they lead. Revenge is on Tuesday night! It all depends on that game to just get me back to myself! But again, THINGS CHANGE.

But I had a wonderful dream. How I wished I am still sleeping and dreaming more. Wah I WANT that dream again! It was just wonderful la. Kept me relaxed and calm after Liverpool lost last night. It was a dream I couldnt have imagined.

Well thats it for now. Outz.

School's boring!

Haiz. School reopened yesterday. It was a long and boring first day of school as usual. Had to verify stuff and all those things that are impt for the teachers. School now ends at 2:30pm every tues,wed and thurs! Mondays it will end at 1:45 and it ends at 12:15 on fridays.

I wonder why my school ends at 2:30! Most other schools ends at 2 or even 1:30! Sigh. I guess I have to get used to it. It's only a year left for me in that school. Now aiming for O levels.

Today had a quite boring day too. But somehow my attitude towards studying have changed a little. I feel that I have to start studying NOW. After what all the teachers have said. O levels written paper this yr starts 22nd october! BUT, I only have 8 months to really know all the topics well and I have 5 months to get all my concepts right cause it will be tested during mid yr exams.

It's only the second day of school and stress is piling up in my head. I know I have to start right now, today, this very moment, this very minute in fact this very second.

Today after school I was bored so yea watched the sec 1's getting wet. I msged Djah and asked her where she was cause was kinda bored and decided to meet her. So went all the way to Toa Payoh and met her with Azzah. They wanted to go to popular to get a malay book for malay lessons in school but there was no stock. Than Djah told me it was Azzah's bday today and I was shocked. haha. Happy Birthday! So after wishing her both of them wanted bubble tea. So we walked all the way to the entertainment centre. On the way there Hidayat told me he wanted to eat and wanted us to accompany him. So yea we waited at the entertainment centre for that slow-poke but he was FAST today. hahahha! Sorry dok jgn marah. We went to fork and spoon and talked rubbish! Hahahaa.

Than we walked around like stupid ppl with no destination. haha =D. So bored. Went home at 5 30 and reached home at about 6? I took a bath, chat bla bla bla bla....... Did my hwk and did some revision on chem. And now I'm waiting for the time to sleep. hahaha.

I shall find out what kind of a day tmr is! hahaha. Last soccer training session with the coach before going back to recreational soccer! Whee! Cant wait for it to end!

Ok shall stop here. More post coming up next week. hahaaha. If I'm free.

Tatas.

Selamat Hari Raye Haji and Happy New Year

I'm here to post again! Hahaha. Had a great but tiring day yesterday.

It was Hari Raya Haji yesterday. On Saturday night, I overnite at the mosque. So I went to the mosque at around 9 30 with my bike. Had a look at the kambings that were there. Unfortunately saw 1 dead one there and it stinks like hell. hahaha.

Than at 10 45 went to Hidayat's hse to watch a Liverpool match with him. Before that we went to a petrol station to pump my bike. Tayar pancit dok. Penat kayuh. So we u-turn back to his hse. We got there in time when the matched started. So yea watched it till 1 am! Liverpool won away frm home 1-0 yeah!

So after that I was excited to go back to the mosque. So I went out of the hse quickly to unlock our bikes. Unfortunately, it couldnt be unlocked! It was like something was stuck in it. In the end Hidayat used too much force to unlock it and the key broke. Half of it was left inside the thingie and the other half is on my keychain. Damn! Spoiled my mood. So we walked back to the mosque.

When we reached there we couldnt find any of our frens. They had gone somewhere. So I called one of them and said that they were on their way back to the mosque. When they reached I found out that they had gone to mac to eat! Azli! Kau masih belom blanje aku ngan Hidayat!

So the whole night we spent it playing the guitar and look after the kambing.

The next thing we knew it was morning! After sembahyang raye many ppl helped angkat the kambing and bla bla bla. My english is very bad la. I helped too. Most of the kambings heavy. Even Azlan gave up carrying them half way and went to the front with me tarik2 kambing yang da kene sembelih. hahaha! Now my whole body aches like hell! Surely fit by tmr. hahah! =P

So we helped till 12+ and than got some food. Ate them right away cause we were hungry. After eating we amik our bahagian daging. English ngan melayu campur takpe ah. Asalkan aku faham. Org lain tak faham takpe. haha.

So yea after that slept for a while until it was 2 o clock. I woke Hidayat up and we went home with a heavy plastic. hahaha. Luckily the bike lock gave us prob the night before. If not I think I cant bring the bike as well as the daging kambing home at the same time. My bike is still stuck at Hidayat's hse! Too bad its gonna stay there for days. haha!

K la. I'm tired of typing. haha. Cyah.

Oops I forgot! HAPPY NEW YR EVERYONE! =)

Peace & Love