boing holidays.
Hmmmm. Blogging again. Not waiting till next thursday. 5 days is very long indeed.
Well, it's saturday again. Usually not free at night cause got Liverpool matches. BUT today, there's no Liverpool match! Yeah. It's tomorrow for this weekend. So I will have nth to do. I still have to complete my english compre and DNT design situations. 2 more. Actually still have english compo, but I dun have the Times magazine to read and do a compo on an article in it! So who cares. Gonna have Adam Khoo's workshop this coming Monday - Wednesday. So I can at least lend it frm someone and do it at night for these 3 days and hand up on Thursday.
Yesterday, I wrote a new song! Wheee. This time it sounds much better. Still haven complete the second part of it yet. I wonder how I can compose such kind of a song about someone heartbroken when I am not heartbroken myself. Hahaha.
And I just realised I nvr went out to anywhere during this 1 week holiday period except for going to Hidayat's hse on Thursday. Hafiz so guai. wahhaha. I feel like going out. But there's nobody to go out with. Hidayat is always busy. My frens are boring, except for Maxim. But I hate him sometimes because he nvr allow me to hug him. hahaha!
As I leave will you be someone to say good-bye?
As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye?
My foot is out the door and you can't stop me now
You wanted the best
It wasn't me
I'll see you again
You'll pretend you're naive
Is this what you want?
Is this what you need?
How you end up? Let me know
Hey! You said you want me to do well for my exams. You want the best for me. You know what? With you giving me this kind of problems, you think I can achieve what I want? Cmon la. This thing is giving me more stress. And I am getting more stress frm everywhere. And I'm gonna say this. AS LONG AS I DUN GET ALL THESE UNNECESSARY STRESS OUT OF MY HEAD, I CANT CONCENTRATE IN ANYTHING I DO! So please la. Just dun give me more.
And I just quarrelled with my mom. It's so sway that Adam Khoo workshop is coming up and this happened. Fck sia! Why does all these things happen at the wrong time?? Knn. So how did this happen? Well, she wanted to ask me to do something. Everytime I am doing something for example playing guitar or composing a song or doing my hwk, she will like tell me to do this la, do that la. Everyday it's like that. So I couldnt take anymore of that and I shouted at her. YES! I SHOUTED AT MY MOTHER. IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I SHOUTED AT HER. My mother wasnt happy with me and she banged the door, banged the wardrobe. What is she thinking? She think she can show off her fcking attitude and I cant? So I showed her my MUCH MORE WORSE FCKING ATTITUDE. Luckily my heart told me not to slap her face. I have been very patient for the last few weeks, months perhaps. But I really cannot take it just now.
So ppl out there just dun give me a fcking attitude. Ya you might see me as a small guy or whatever you wanna call. Just dun let me hear anything insulting. I just want a good reputation. I dun wan ppl to see me as a bad guy or whatever. But there is always ppl who are pushing me to my limits and I cannot stand it. Btw, for no reason, I just acted rudely to my aunt too.
So from today, I can conclude that my life is nothing but full of problems. Big ones which originated frm just small things. As long as I dun have PEACE, I cant do what I can do best and to achieve what I have been targeting.