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What's going through my mind right now!

Since I have nothing to do right now, I shall post what's going through my mind right now.

Since XuePeng speaks rotten English, I've decided to help him improve so that others will understand what he's talking about in future. Now I must speak good English too! No more singlish. I'm trying!! I wanna be like the ang mo's. hahas. Many people will think that I'm weird but who cares.

Secondly, nowadays, I've been dreaming. Whenever I see live performances of some bands at youtube, I feel as if I was in their place. I hope one day, I could be like them. I really wish I can perform someday.

Thirdly, whenever I see Mark Gonzalez playing for Liverpool, I dream as if I was playing on the field itself. His pace and style gives me the inspiration and motivation to play better football whenever I have the chance to. I hope someday, I could be the second version of Mark Gonzalez.

Lastly, midyr exams are coming very soon indeed. I don't think I will do well for it. I haven studied much. But I have this dream and that it to get less than 13 points for either L1R5 or L1R4. To get that, I know I have to start working hard. DNT is consuming most of my studying time. I can't let that happen. I have to get into Media & Mass Communication course in Singapore Poly! Whatever it is I don't care! I must get it and I really mean it. Engineering might be another option, but it'll definitely be better if I get what I want.

So Hafiz, tell yourself to study hard, train hard, work hard and dream more and you'll achieve what you want! I can't believe I just talked to myself here in this blog!

Happy Birthday Valerie!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VALERIE!

Yue Wen brought that Teddy Bear present to school today! Luckily he called Maxim yesterday. If not we wouldnt had anything to give to Valerie. hahas. YueWen, Maxim and me decided to share the present. But some of the rest knew and wanted to share too. Extra la. Next time go and buy yourself. Lols.

So I went to United after Maths ERP with the rest. People was looking at me and could be wondering why I was holding that teddy bear. haha. So I met Val at United's Macdonalds and gave the present to her. The first impression they had on me was that I've grown taller. Of course I have been growing. The last time I saw them was 2 yrs ago?!? Haha. Couldnt remember.

XuePeng was emo again in school today. He's always emo nowadays. But he was very funny when he chased the bus. haha. I and Maxim saw 851 coming and told him to chase the bus. So he really chased the bus. But the bus didnt stop at the bus stop and he's still running. We were wondering to ourselves was he mad or something? Suddenly he took the bus that was already at the bus stop and we didnt knew that it was another 851. hahas. Maxim and I laughed like mad ppl but we were not that mad. Lols.

Ok. Now I have generation of ideas to be completed by tmr! This will take a long time indeed. Tatas!

He wanted her, she'd never tell

Secretly she wanted him as well

RARE Tuesday

Well. It's indeed a very RARE Tuesday. There wasn't any ERP today after school. How often can me and my friends get a free day on tuesday? Lol. The answer is only once in a long period of time. It was indeed today. I guess after today, there will be no more free Tuesdays! hahas.

So the "gang" went out to Novena Square. Had lunch except for me. I only had Kopi Susu. After that we all went to Queensway Shopping Mall to collect our class Jersey. It rocks! Although it's white and quite plain, it's still very nice indeed especially mine with Mark Gonzalez's name with the number 11. wahaha. JzeHue is going to kill ZhongWei for choosing an XS size for him. haha. JzeHue is bigger than me but his size is XS and mine is S. wahhaha. Good luck to you man!

All of us crapped inside the bus to and fro. haha. Damn fun. It was as if it was our own bus! We were talking so loud about stupid stuffs. Damn embarrassing in the end though. But who cares. The ppl in the bus don't even know us. hahas.

So Jeremiah took half the Jersey and ZhongWei took the other half home. Jeremiah's was checked at the MRT station because it was suspected to be something dangerous. haha. By right it was only our Jerseys. haha.

I bet half the class Jerseys will be crumpled tmr thanks to Jeremiah. haha. Everytime he touches things, he'll destroy them in the next few mins, seconds probably. haha. Sorry to criticise but it is 80% true most of the time.

I guess I have to go and do my homework now before I meet my doom tmr. hahas. Tatas!

Friday, 13th April

Well, today's Friday the 13th. wahhaha. Joshua told me that in the morning. And something unlucky happened!

So today, it was quite an average day. International friendship shoe decoration has been brought forward to next Wednesday during the CME and PC period.

During recess, the unexpected was to come. haha. Damn. It wasnt on purpose. I SWEAR. Mabellyn! You might have just made her think the other way round. So as usual I ate during recess. After eating, Jze Hue told me to help him carry back his bowl together with mine. So I put my bowl on top of his and I put all the spoons and fork on my bowl. I also wanted to throw away my empty carton of drink. I just stacked it up the bowl. I also stacked Jeremiah's empty carton together. Than when I was walking, Jeremiah's empty carton dropped onto the floor. I cant pick it up if I didnt put the bowls somewhere first. So I decided to put it on this table where Pearlyn was sitting and I didnt know she was there. So I picked up the carton and when I wanted to continue my way to the bins, Mabellyn suddenly said " Purposely". I went HUH? to myself. So when I was on my way back towards my friends, I found out that Mabellyn said "purposely" because she thinks I purposely put the bowls on the table to pick up that carton just to see Pearlyn. I SWEAR it was accidental. No doing it on purpose ok? Mabellyn said "purposely" too loud and I think Pearlyn heard it. Now she might be thinking that I really did it on purpose. Damn it. Ok fine I shall not think about it. Makes me feel freaking paiseh. Why did it happen!?! Later she thinks that I want to look at her more. Sigh. I want to end it all la. She knows that I have been talking about her to my friends a few months ago. I just dun wan her to think of me in a sense that she thinks I'm like a pervert or whatever. I'm stopping my topics on her already but Maxim keeps talking about it. After I screwed his life, he's screwing mine!

Had my English Oral too today. Mr Pilo or Pailo or however to spell his name is very funny. haha. He kept asking me funny questions. Strange teacher but a friendly one. hahas!

After Oral, there was no CCA as it was raining. So Joshua, ZhongWei and me went to Julmawan's hse. We had fun playing the guitar except for Joshua because he was the only one there who doesnt know how to play the guitar. hahas. He kept disturbing me and ZhongWei and Jul. hahaha! Joshua I suggest you learn how to play the drum. From there you can go crazy. haha!

So I went home at 6 today. Julmawan and ZhongWei wants to bring their guitar to school tmr. They told me to bring mine too. Wah damn troublesome. hahas. But I'll try.

Now I'm crazy playing the guitar. hahas. Trying to learn how to play new songs.

Off I go ... Jamming alone. hehe. =P

Napha! Great!

Wooo hooo! I passed all. Anw, I am a person who must be passing all the 5 items. It's strange if a person who is so active like me fail to pass the 5 items.

Sit & Reach : 44cm (Wasted. Can actually push a lil more)
Pull Up : 13 (Bloody Mr Choo stop counting until there! I did more than 13!!!!)
Shuttle Run : 10.3 secs. (I wasnt at my best. Trying to protect my knee! I cant bend it properly.)
Sit Up : 50 (Well I'm not surprised)
Standing Broad Jump : 210cm (Haiz. Every year, because of this, I fail to get a gold or silver! Damn it)

Hahahah! And I pushed myself real hard today. If wasnt for that knee injury, I could have done a lil better. Whatever it is just now, I told myself to do my very best. Actually I was thinking about Mark Gonzalez. If I want to be like him, than I must firstly pass my 5 items. hahaha. I was dreaming of becoming like him. And as have I learnt frm the Adam Khoo's workshop, dreams are very impt. Now I cant wait for my 2.4 run! I'm aiming for less than 11 mins. And to achieve that I have to dream on that day itself. hahha! It really works. I just have to push myself a little harder.

Ok. Overall it was a good day. It wasnt very stressful today. Not too much of lecture frm the teachers. They nvr teach new stuff except for Miss Lim. She teached a new chapter on Probability. She gave questions on poker cards yesterday which I dun even know how to do. Racist. haha!

Btw, Kevin injured his toe. It was disgusting. His skin tore. Blood was coming out of the wound. It wasnt just a small wound. It was a very big one. Sadly he couldnt complete his napha today. He was left with 2 more stations but he got his toe injured after doing shuttle run. I pity him. He was in pain at first. It was obvious. Haiz. Maybe it's just the curse of 4E3. Jze Hue, who broke his toe about 2-3 weeks ago is returning to school tmr. He's still recovering though. Kevin will be coming to school tmr but he surely need help with walking. Yesterday, I could barely walk as well. Thanks to my friend! But I feel very lucky when I find that I am able to walk today. Ok now I'm very tired! I wanna rest.

Well, I think thats it for today. *Tired* I shall give myself a good rest now.

I HATE YOU. FCK OFF

Damn you Cherie. I hate you. Because of you, my knee is screwed. Because of you, I must push myself for tmr's napha which probably I cant do! Because of you, I feel very angry right now. If I really cannot take my napha tmr, I will turn into a monster nobdy would want to see. Fuck la. I'm just disappointed! Tears roll down my cheeks in disappoinment. I still can do my napha, but I am afraid that something WORSER might happen to my knee. I hate you la. So violent. You kicked my knee to the table's leg as if you're whacking a soccer ball. It came suddenly just like that. I had no time to react. Just fuck off. I hate you la.

I feel damn fucking disappointed la. I dun give a damn! I must do my napha tmr even if it means breaking this LEG! I cant hold back my furore. I just feel like hitting everything thats around! But why did she kicked my leg 1 day before napha! Cant she do it after? FUCK LA.

Just fuck off. I dun even wanna talk to anybody right now. It hurts deep inside if I really nvr get to do napha tmr! I've been waiting. And if I miss tmr, the next time I'd probably do it is in JULY! Knn.

I made a vow not to talk to you anymore! I hate you a lot. H to the A to the T to the E! HATE YOU! Only if you talk to me I will give an ans in return. If not forget it! HATE YOU BITCH! I JUST HATE YOU!

I dun even feel like doing anything else other than HATING YOU and thinking of how I can do my napha. Damn you! I just hate you. I cant even think of anything except for crying alone in my bed and regretting that it happened. Damn fucking disappointed.

AND WHATEVER! I hate you alot!

It's Not Over - Secondhand Serenade

It's Not Over - Secondhand Serenade

My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you ' or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over

The thing I didnt wanna know but did.

SCREWING PPL'S LIFE ISN'T WHAT I INTEND TO DO WHICH I DID, BUT HAVING YOUR LIFE SCREWED IS THE WORST THING THAT COULD EVER HAPPEN.

Why are all these things happening? Maybe, its just a test. (Cobaan)

Ok. So it all started on Saturday. I found out that my father resigned frm work due to a quarrel with someone. I feel very worried. He's 54 this year and he resigned frm his job as a delivery driver. My mum's worried about the house we're staying in now. Calculations frm my elder brother when we moved into this hse was that the payment of this hse will be completed if my father worked until he'ss 55. The monthly bills will also be a big problem. I feel that I just want to get a job right now and help. But I know that my mum wont allow. Sigh.

Yesterday, MAXIM told me I screwed his life. WTH. Did I? I was just giving opinion about the *you know what I mean*. It doesnt mean you have to look at them too what. It's all up to you. You change your own life. haha. But if I've influenced you, I'm very sorry la ok. I dun wanna show you hw I really felt yesterday when u said that. Cause you must have fun outside. At home can think about it. And ever sinced I found out something this morning, I VOWED not to screw your life anymore la. So you see, today I didnt talk about any of those stuff with you. I mean how boring can life be without that topic!

Today, it was very tiring! SLEEPY all day long. Lack sleep last night. Tonight its Liverpool Vs PSV Eindhoven first leg. I wonder how I am gonna survive. And today, I had to have high self esteem of myself, just like what the adam khoo workshop trainers told we people. haha. See. I'm still happy. Not sad, not depressed. I mean, for what must I be for no necessary reasons? At least I have one lesser thing to care about now.

Haha. Now I must learn hw to treasure friends and not make them hate me. The way I have been acting lately has been of the wall. My attitude and behaviour have changed so much that I think many will not like to be friends with me. I have no idea whats wrong with me but I know there is something wrong and frm today, I'm gonna make it right. I love all my friends, especially my close friends although they are not very close but they're still close and still can get closer. haha! Love you all. <3. Muackss. Huggs! Hahah. Must follow western style. MARK GONZALEZ! whee.

Btw, I'm waiting for the class jersey to be completed. My sweet number 11 with Mark Gonzalez's name behind. It would be a dream. haha. But the brand is Diadora which sux. haha.

And last but not least, wahahaha. I'm always evil. hahha! Jokin =P. I'm gonna train on my "crosses" and f"ree kicks" to get the ball hitting my "target." wahahah. If you understand what I mean. I bet none of you do. hahaha!

Bubbye!

April Fool! =D

LIVERPOOL 4-1 ARSENAL ; ANFIELD

So thats the story of last night's match between Liverpool and Arsenal. Peter Crouch got his first hat-trick in his club career! Absolutely amazing. THREE CHEERS FOR SWEET REVENGE!
So it was a well deserved victory for Liverpool before April fools day. haha. I made a conclusion that the 4-1 victory wasnt just a 4-1. It means Arsenal were the fools. haha. If u turn the scoreline the opposite way, its Arsenal 1-4 Liverpool. haha. It means 1st of april. Arsenal symbolising the 1st while Liverpool symbolises the month. hahaha! Ok if you dun get it nvm. haha. It's a magnificent victory. The first time in my reign as a Liverpool fan where Liverpool thrashed one of the BIG FOUR in the EPL. That victory also means that it was Arsenal's first defeat against any of the big four this season. Liverpool rocks my life! =D

Yesterday night at 12+, I fooled Jeremiah! Whee. lol. it goes like this ....

Me: Hey! I got a new gf. Wheee.
Jeremiah: huh what thing lol
Me: I mean I got a new girlfriend la.
Jeremiah: who?
Me: You really wanna know?
Jeremiah: DUH! If not why did I ask.
Me: Ok. It's April Fool. haha. Happy April Fools! =D
Jeremiah: Lol fine good one. Reminds me of when we almost tricked Basyir.

Wahahahah! And sadly, I couldnt fool Jac. She didnt reply in the middle of the night. When I woke up this morning, I found out that she has replied my msg but too bad I wasnt in the mood of fooling anyone. So I just didnt bother to fool her. haha.

So I went to watch POWER RANGERS SPD. hahaha! After the show I went to bathe. When I came out of the bathroom, I told my mum that there was a lizard in the toilet. She asked me where? I said there. hahaha. Than she was like where? Than I said, APRIL FOOL. I laughed and ran to my room. hahaha! I fooled my mum! Opportunities must not be wasted. wahaha.
Well, I've just completed my homeworks. Sunday is a very boring day! I cant go out. Stay home and rot the whole day. Sigh. Nvm. Tmr's monday! A new day of another week with school to attend.

Oh yeah. I just thought of something just now. haha. I want to learn SPANISH. hahaha! But where?? Anyone knows? If you do tell me.

YESTERDAY I WAS FINDING SONGS AT IMEEM.COM. Before that I was at the lyrics of Akon songs. At the side I saw the link for Avril Lavigne - Girlfriend lyrics. So I clicked on it and went to search for the song. AND GUESS WHAT! The song is cute! haahaha. I like it. Like it. Like it. Hey Hey! You You! hahahahhaha! Nice song.

Ok. I shall go listen to it more. hahaha. It makes me smile. Hehe.