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UPS AND DOWNS

It has been a stressful day. Didn't went for night studies though. But still, there were ERP's to attend. haiz. That's just life in sec 4.

I got so stressed up during mother tongue period. It was boring. Watching one show that takes up the whole of 2 periods. Didn't even had time to do some DNT work.

Things started to get a little worser when I went back to class. Joshua was looing very unhappy. He came up to me and said. " Wah fiz, xuepeng is a liar." I was like "i see". Seriously I didnt have the mood to talk. Well, about Josh and Xuepeng is a very long story. Even Jze Hue and Xiuwen got involved.

Seriously speaking, Josh should not have talked to Xp that way. And Xp shouldnt have reacted that way. And Jze Hue didnt have to shout at Xp in that way. And poor Xw was just feeling so bad I guess. haha.

So I went up to JzeHue and asked him several questions. When I was done I went up to Josh and also asked him a couple more. Before I went for assembly I met Xp inside his classroom. And there he was, arguing to prove his innocence. I know he wasnt wrong. I know Josh and JzeHue wasnt to be blamed too. Rumours can really make ppl quarrel among each other.

So I thought of what I have done last time when my friends were in need of some help. I didnt do a great job last time out. I know I was wrong. Luckily,I remembered DJAH! She was always giving me problems and giving me the advice that in friendship or relationship, there are always problems. There are ups and downs of life too. That made me decided to talk to each of them. Haha. (Jgn kembang ah org ckp pasal die kat dlm sini. hehe)

JzeHue still looked unhappy. Josh and Xp are quite alright now. I think I have done something new today that I have nvr done before and that is to go up to them and confront them. Acheived something new. Yeah! Feel quite happy with myself. Well, what a grandmother story. hahas.

Tay Zhong Wei also said something that I absolutely agree. "When you think of someone, it may affect you real bad, especially when it is someone that is very important to you."

Hey Tay, seriously serious, this is the first time I'm seriously very serious for what I've said just now. Perhaps ......................... =)

Firstly, I gotta say that I'm gonna have 2 stressful weeks. Dnt Dnt and more Dnt folio. haiz. It's just so boring. It takes patience to get through at least 1 A3 size paper per day. Btw, 1 piece per day is just too slow. I have to speed up somehow. Well gotta find time. I have no choice but to put aside other subjects at the moment.

I dun wanna think too much about unrelated stuff in my life that are not achievable now but only later in the future.

I wanna put my guitar aside, I want to put my com aside, I want to put many things that I cant resist aside for now till the end of November. But the question to myself is that, can I do it? Probably it takes time to abide them.

Ok I guess I shall not waste time. Thats all for now. It's DNT time. =)

Depressed. Sad.

What I am going through now isnt what I thought it feels like. I hate it and I really do. I guess I now know what some of you have gone through before. I'm so sorrie. It's unbearable. I don't feel like myself. But why? Argh.

This is just the second time in a couple of days. Driving me into somewhere else which I don't wanna go to. Just what is wrong with me or you, I don't have a clue. I don't describe this as insanity. It's totally different. I just can't describe it.

Whatever it is, I've just let myself down again. What the hell is happening to me!

All I gotta say is physically I'm fine but mentally I'm just not there for these few days. Haiz. I simply have no idea what I'm saying.

I guess, I'll just have to be patient.

Yesterday was fun. haha! Had guitar lessons in the morning which was cool! Foto said music isnt cheap. We pay for it! hahas. It's true.

I went home at 1 30 and went out again to study with a friend of mine. It was so not right lah. It was just not right. Yeap it wasnt right. My maths sucks. But I did learn something. I learnt MAGIC! =)). Magic of maths I mean. hahas. Thanks for teaching.

Well, today's is my aunt's daughter's bday! Happy Birthday Fadhilah! I'm going to my aunt's hse at 3+ for the celebrations.

I guess that's all. I wont be blogging much these days. I just have nothing to talk about. I meant that some things are better left unblogged or unsaid. =)