Stressful life!
It's 2 30 am and I'm not asleep yet. I just cant find myself on the bed right now.
It has been a very difficult week. Prelims are totally different than other examinations. It's just so difficult. I think I'm gonna fail many subjects this time round. Well, I'm prepared to fail anw. I'm not the studying type of person. Even if I put in 110% on studying everyday, I can only probably manage a C6 for the subs I'm weak at. For example, maths. I've been practising quite a number of papers and solving some questions that I dont know how to do with Azzah, XuePeng and Hidayat. I'm DEFINITELY gonna fail my maths preliminary paper. I didnt do a lot of questions. Haiz. I'm disappointed with myself although I know I've tried.
I've been going through ups and downs of life too this past week. It just isnt right. I dont know what is wrong. Is it me? Or is it just you ppl. I have absolutely no idea. It's just so strange. When these things happen, words like "trust" and "liars" strucked my mind. I dont know what's going on. What I know is that some ppl out there are just beautiful liars. I realised that when I asked something I knew to someone and that person replied with "I don't know". What a lie! It seems so real. I dont wanna mention names. It's hard for me to trust anybody now.
For now, I just want to keep them all aside in the corners of my mind just to create some space for other things like 'O' Levels. I dont wanna get affected by these things. It's just so hard to accept the fact.
Lastly, I wanna say that, as a friend, I will want to give you support and not let you down. Just so you know. Many ppl are getting me wrong somehow. So please understand that there's nothing wrong for the unsaid to be said out.