The best way to fall, is in love with me ;)

Emooo!

I'm emo. Ok why the hell did I even say that. I have always been emo. Don't believe me? Start believing then.

I lost my voice! argh! My falsetto!! I cant sing empty! I've been singing Catch Your Wave, Just The Girl and Say Goodnight since afternoon! The emotional touches to the song makes it wonderful. Soothing to the mind.

I was imagining things yesterday! "That smooth long hair, with that white head scarf. That black ............. which suits the ...................... And that shiny ............... That special touch which caressed my soul. Omg, everything!"

I went to listen to some old songs by the Click Five today and Just The Girl suits the situation I'm in now.

Strange as it seems she's the one I'm after.
What can I do? I'd do anything for her

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

But I can't give up just yet
Cause every word she's ever said
Is still ringin' in my head
Still ringin' in my head

She's really a mystery. I don't know how to explain that but I know she is. And seriously I can't help myself! What should I do? I just need some time to think and I just need some time to breathe. It's as if I'm in a spell which nvr ends.

Your voice is heaven but it hurts. Your words are memories but they burn. I can't take the sorrow.

Tried to take a picture of love
Didnt think I'd miss her that much
I wanna fill this new frame, but its empty

I miss her everyday ever since sch holiday started. I didnt know it would be like this. I don't know what is wrong with me. It comes naturally. I don't know how to get rid of it. Even if I knew, I will not want to do it.

Great! I'm always thinking too much. Even if I try to do anything else, I still can't get my mind out of it.

It's just another day
All I see is just the rain
Thinking of you all day

I'm losing my mind. I hate everything that is going on. Hate it! I just need to do something which can take me away from this situation. But what?

Everytime I look at you
You remind me of someone new
There were times you haunt my dreams
And it seems like those things were real

Sometimes I just feel like telling. But I don't think it's the right time yet.

I don't wanna waste another day
Keeping it inside its killing me cause
All I ever want it comes right down to you, to you
I'm wishing I could find the words to say

Enough fiz! argh ...

You got me going out of my mind ..

Sad.

Ok I'm blogging again. It's 11:01am and I'm bored.

My sister's giving birth to her second child probably today! Wheee! I'm getting another niece/nephew. hahas. Sorrie but the doctor could not confirm the gender of the child. Probably going to the hospital later in the afternoon.

I went to watch Enchanted yesterday with zaaaa. Oh my the story was sweeeet! Awwww. hahas. Zaaa wasn't late. Amazing isn't it! I'm surprised. Really I am. Not kidding.

I woke up 1 hr ago thinking about what I was thinking last night. Could it be? Or is it just something else? Did it really happen? Haiz. Somehow, everything is making me sad. What is happening to me? Where's the fiz I knew just a few weeks ago? Perhaps a year ago.

Sometimes, I feel that my friends are treating me in a different way now. I don't even feel like talking to them anymore. They just make me sad. There's no point talking to them. Everything is so different. I just wanna run away although I know that's not the cure to the sadness I'm facing. Perhaps I have not been a good friend. Whatever! I know I've tried to become one but if you don't appreciate it, the door is always open for you to leave! I'm trying to find someone to talk to. I just need someone who understands. And so far .... I'm not going there.

You build me up and then tear me down - you make me happy but also make me sad at the same time.

Valerie - Beautiful Serenade

I've completed another song. Lyrics officially completed on 20th November 2007 and fully written by me. I'm still writing 2 more songs currently. Trying to complete it as soon as possible so that I can write more songs. I titled this song Valerie. Why? Ask me personally. Here are the lyrics. =)

Valerie

When I see her lying next to me
It seems surreal
When she left me all alone

I cannot sleep

Why do you have to go

When she left it leaves me in disbelieve

All I need now is a remedy
To cure this pain inside of me

Valerie
I want to let you know

[Chorus]
You are the one I'm looking for

Your precious touch caressed my soul
And I can't bear to see you go ..
Valerie
When you first came you said hello

And then you left without a note
Valerie
Where'd you go, where are you.

All she left behind were memories
I can't forget the times she was with me
I need you here right by my side
Valerie
Why did you leave me here

[Chorus]
You are the one I'm looking for

Your precious touch caressed my soul
And I can't bear to see you go ..
Valerie
When you first came you said hello

And then you left without a note
Valerie
Where'd you go..

[Chorus]

Beautiful serenade

Well, I can't declare the end of O's yet. POA ppr 1 is on Tuesday and misery ends there. I've only looked through the mcq questions. I haven done any practice. Anw, I screwed up my POA ppr 2.

I've been BORED all week! My younger bro is keeping the PS2 away from me! My younger sis just wont stop using the com once she gets hold onto it! LUCKILY, I have my baby. My guitar. I've held it, day and night for the pass few days. I'm currently writing a new song. It's still pending but almost complete. The song will be titled "Valerie". How I derived it? Well, basically I was thinking of how to get back to good terms with XP. Thats how I got the title. Good news is, its an alternative rock song. The first ever alternative rock song written by me! I feel good. =D. Oh yea, and I'm trying my best to complete it before this Thursday cause I wanna perform it at the chalet on Thursday night itself. Wish me the best of luck guys.

On top of that, I've been DREAMING. Dreaming that I am a lead singer of a band. It feels great if I am one. In fact if I want to, I can be one. I just need a band! I thought of it long enough and I think that Hidayat, Rezuan, Said and me myself can form a band. 1 sentimental guy plus 1 jiwang melayu plus 1 rock never die plus one emotional habis. The only problem is, we need a DRUMMER. That's all that has been missing. If we can't find one, one of us will have to learn. But the question is, who?

And Foto is going to invite professional guitarist to some kind of our guitar group gathering somewhere in December. Omg! I can't miss that. I'm definitely looking forward to it!!

Oh yeap, one more thing. I cannot believe it. Someone forgot something. =(. Congrats!

Beautiful Serenade ..

BHSS =)

It has been a long time since I last updated!

Well, lots of things happen throughout the times I haven been updating.

The Graduation Day on 12th October. It's sad that life in Secondary School has ended. It was a good day but also a tiring day as it was still the fasting month. My throat was dry.

Life in Secondary School has been great. I've made new friends ever since I first stepped into the school 4 yrs ago. Time really flies that fast. The friends I've made there are great. Each and every one of them has their own personalities. These are the people I will nvr forget.

Puan Xue Peng - Top of the list because he has been a very nice friend. Always been there for me when I had problems. The closest friend I have in school. When I try to find ways to return him the favours, it always turn out to be wrong. I have no idea what I can do.

Tay Zhong Wei - Always full of jokes. Lame jokes I suppose. Or maybe not. haha. Well, girls are always attracted to him. Why?! Cmon, you girls know why. =) Rmb Tay, hate you for 3 years! Contract! lol.

Maxim Koh - Weird guy. lol! When there's a chance, u dont take it. When you're threatened, you go for it. hahas. And you're always obsessed with new songs! I'll never forget that I wrote something about YOU in my mid yr composition on OBSESSIONS! hahas.

Joshua Cheow - CRAP GUY. hahaha! Always like to laugh for no reason. Always horny! Molest people for nth. hahas. But the weird thing about u is, you're smart man! Oh yea, you cant control your anger. hahas.

Ho Yue Wen - The second person I got to know in that school. haha. Ehh, you grow much faster than me! Unfair. I know I was the same height as you in sec 1. A guy who always chase his dreams no matter what it takes. I hope you do that when you find your life partner! =P

Jeremiah Ng - Nobody is going to forget him I bet. So crappy. Always have a new lame joke. Your jokes dun make ppl laugh. But it makes ppl laugh at u instead. Cmon, dun take this comment to seriously. You know that it is u. You cant change urself because thats who you are. Oh yea, one good thing about u is that ure creative. BLUETACK COMPANY wont be rich without you! hehe. sorry. =P

Chee Guang Hann. - Another horny guy. hahas. Reciprocating motion is always in his head. Thanks to DNT. Manipulation was the topic for our folio. And that's where it got worse. Thanks to me. haha. Cmon, guys are still guys. We get horny sometimes. hahas. Pro in looking out for ehemm (you know what I mean). hahas. And if you are together with us when its time to go home, I and Tay nvr to say ... Me: CHEE! .. Tay: BYE! haha!

Marvin Chia - One word .. SOCCER! hahas. Soccer is what we usually talk about. ManUtd sucks. Liverpool Rocks. hehe. Lols. I know u think Liverpool sucks and ManUtd rocks.

Basyir - I cant forget the times you made me laugh till I wanna cry when I was in sec 1. And u still make ppl laugh up till now. =D

Azmil - SOMEWHERE ELSE is what I will nvr forget. Your somewhere else made us walk around the whole of TPY finding seats just to study for O levels. Oh yea, I still rmb the times when we nvr talked. haha.

Ralph - Pro in soccer. Pro in guitar. Pro in study. Pro in ........ Alamak! PRO LAH. haha. I still rmb the times I nvr talked to you too. It took 2 yrs before we talked again. hahahaha!

Faisal - You're just the pro in studies than anyone else I've known in BHSS.

Julmawan Cendy - Muahahaha. Always sleeping in class. Such unforgettable moments. hehehhe.

Kevin Kuah - You can really make ppl laugh. Continue and I bet you can be the next comedian in Singapore. haha! You make me go nuts.

Nona Fitria - Cinta monyet. =P. haha! You should know what I mean.

Jaclyn Chia - Thanks for giving me the Jaclyn motivational talk. haha. You rock! (you even wrote it in my physics textbook)

Ang Xiu Wen - Thanks for giving me advices at times. LOL. But you nvr seem to be really happy all the time? Why?

Khodeejah - I owe you lots. I know you have been such a wonderful friend. You changed my life. You made me realise what life is all about. You made me grow up. You make me know how it is going to be like in future. All the times we've been through with each other, it is special. Perhaps, that was what I needed - someone to make me realise new things in life. =)

Nur Azzah - You know, there's a reason why I put you last. There are just too many things to say about you. Life is weird. When I first saw you, I didnt know that I could get to know you. When I got to know you, I didnt know that we could get this close. When we got this close, I nvr knew that ..... It's hard being in this position at the moment. Nobody will want to be in this situation. Most of my friends know what sorrows I've been going through for the last few months. Why did you give me hope when you didnt? Why did you say things I dont wanna listen. Perhaps you dont know. I guess for now, I have to do what my heart tells me to. I dont wanna see you go. But at the same time, I dont wanna be an "extra". I tried to tell you many times, but the situation isnt right. You're just the girl I dreamt of long long ago.

Someone, save me from my sorrows. =(