The best way to fall, is in love with me ;)

Goodbye 2007

Well, this is the final post of 2007!

Lets recall the times of 2007 frm the beginning! Yay! ahas. Memories. They're just wonderful. Some of them are for me to cherish and some are for me to learn where I have gone wrong.

The times where I learn a lot and grew much more mature was quarelling with Djah. Hahas. Going through the bad times was indeed a lesson for me. It really did help me become a better person. From there, I started to understand more about others. Its really great to help others. I feel the satisfaction whenever I help someone in need. That is why I'm a part time counsellor right now. LIKE REAL! ahas.

Studying for O levels is just not what every student wants. But it is for our own benefit. Seriously, I did not take studying that serious during the times I was still in school. I liked to slack and have the feeling of cannot be bothered to study. But I realised as O levels came nearer, I started to really work hard. I also realised that I didn't work that hard too. When O levels ended, I did not feel the satisfaction I should be feeling.

People said, I'm a person who doesnt take things seriously. Maybe, it is true sometimes. But from my point of view, I do take things seriously. Perhaps not for some. I realised that when someone has the passion for something, they would do anything to achieve their goal. Frm there, I feel that I didn't give all of it in my O's. That is what I regret.

I meet new people and get to know them. From my angle, when I first saw the people that are now my friends, I thought they were not the kind where they are that good. But as I get to know each and everyone of them better, my mindset towards them changed. I think they're really great. This goes to my band members. I thought I couldn't get along with them in the first place. I guess I was wrong. We're now doing our best to become one of the most popular bands in Singapore.

I also got to know someone who made me feel what I am not supposed to feel. Actually that someone has been the best thing that happened to me in 2007. But I got my limits. I know what I feel and I know where it will bring me to. Whether it will go on or whether it will stop, only I know because I am the one who feel. People always get me wrong. I'll let you think of what you ppl are thinking cause I can't be bothered to change that.

I go through lots of emo times with Xp too. Think again. It's life. Everyone has to feel sad and happy and whatever else someday.

And I really miss Secondary School! I miss my friends. Now everyone is doing their own part in life. Some are working, some are slacking, some are gaming. We don't meet each other often now. I miss the times with them because they are the ones who made me become who I am now. Mixing with diff ppl changes ppl. I realised I've changed too. I'm not sticking with what I use to do or say last time. Hanging out with different ppl makes me change. Whatever I say and whatever I do, its all the style of the ppl that I'm mixing around with now.

I get to know myself better as time goes by too. Well, all I can say is, 2007 has been the year where I have learnt a lot. Frm friends, to teamwork and care for the ppl around, it has been a great year.

My aim at the start of 2007 was becoming a better person and doing anything it takes to achieve my goals. I think I did become a much better person and I'm definitely on my way to doing anything it takes to achieve my goals and dreams.

2007 has also been miraculous. When I think that something wont even have a chance to happen, it happens somehow. It's shocking. ahas.

Well, I guess that is all. Oh ya, I want an electric guitar. It is all I ever wanted throughout 2007! I wish I can get it. I hope my wish do come true next yr. hehe.

Goodbye 2007, welcome 2008 =).

It's time to do better. =))

Rising star problems.

I've been out of house since afternoon today and I reached home at 10 30pm.

Went to a wedding with Freedom. We were supposed to perform. But that bloody bangla band just won't lend us their amplifiers and drum. They onli sang Hindi songs. It was boring. BORING. BORING! Seriously we should have played! All of us wore our long sleeve shirt and wow we all looked smart but weird. hahas. On my way home, ppl thought that I just came back frm prom night.

Ok. So now, Freedom has lots of problems. Rezuan, Said, performance and many more. Rezuan is starting sec 5 soon and he can't be fooling around much. He has to prove Miss Chamb that he can make it for the first 3 months. If he doesn't, he'll get sacked. And that's the worst thing that can ever happen. Said has disappeared suddenly. Perhaps he knew all of us were against him. He was the one who made ppl think of him that way in the first place. Well, we're gonna find out more soon.

Our next performance will be on 11th January 2008. It'll be at the elderly's block. It's gonna be boring but we'll perform for ourselves and have fun. Claps performance will be in March and it will be at Far East! Damn it! Why Far East?! We'll probably be finding more performances in between. Well, this might be the start.

The band sat down at BK at tpy and discussed just now. And guess what. I think Helmi is a good leader. Somehow the things he said and the way he got it to us, it makes me think that he is a good leader. Someone who is good at voicing out the wrongs and the rights without hesitating. Someone who asked for opinions on why we should or should not do something. I think that is great. ahas. Now I know why his gf loves him. hehe. jk =P

Ok, I'm off to sleep. I'll be posting the last post of 2007 later tonight. =)

And when things are not as easy as you think.

Good guy gone bad.

I'm a good guy gone bad. ahas. Not that bad lah.

I found out more about myself lately. I'm sensitive. hahah! Omg, I can't believe it. Yat was right. Foto was right too. I just take words too seriously. I take actions too seriously too. I'm starting to scold lots of vulgarities nowadays. What the hell is wrong with me?! I must stop. I must stop. I must stop.

Someone told me that I looked like an innocent boy with not even an inch of a Mat face! Hahahha! Maybe, just remove that 'innocent' and replace it with 'normal'. I said something yesterday to show that I wasn't that innocent but I just forgotten what I said. STM(Short Term Mem).

I went out at 10am yesterday and reached home at 11pm at night. I can't believe that I spent more than 12 hrs outside. Well, basically I was with my band. We went to yw@p to practice till 2. Went for lunch till 3 plus and went off to the jamming studio at Potong Pasir as usual. We jammed frm 4-6pm. It was boring this time. Our performance at the wedding today has been cancelled but we still got the money. So to show our appreciation we shall give a visit today.

We went to orchard after jamming and walked around aimlessly. My legs were weak already. I told them "why not go to ps?". Guess what, they really walked there! hahaha. Omg. And they scold me for going there for no reason. haha. At least we found something to do there and that is to visit Yamaha.

We went back to Tpy at 9 30pm and had dinner at Fork & Spoon. Everyone ate like they have nvr eaten before. hahas. We were soo hungry.

Ok, I'm off to msg Helmi about later. =)

When things don't go the way you want them to be

Tiring week

It has been a tiring week indeed.

I went to the chalet on Wednesday. My cousin organized it. It was fun but tiring of course.

When we got there in the morning, we went to Wild Wild Wet(WWW). It was terrible because before I even got into the pool, one of my cousin pushed me into it and my knees got injured. It hurts whenever I get out of the water because the skin was torn. I still can't bend my knees properly now.

Ok, so we played at WWW till around 2 and got off to check in. We had spaghetti for lunch. After that, we went back to WWW. I was already shivering. I can't stand it. It was so cold. Ahh. But it was fun. So I had to force myself. We went out of WWW at 6 plus. My shoulders and my legs were already weak. Thanks to that Tsunami pool.

At night, we went to the arcade to play. It was boring. Arcade is just not my game. I hate arcades. =P. We had dinner at BK since the foodcourt was already closing.

We didnt do anything much at night. We just played some games and got off to bed at 4am.

In the morning, all my muscles were straining especially my neck. I can't turn my head!! My shoulder hurts too. And I found out that I had sunburn too. My face is red! So is my body.

The worse thing was having guitar practice at night at the TPY youth club. I couldnt carry myself already. I just wanted to sleep.

And I left my msn online, leaving the computer on, and falling asleep at 11pm last night. I'm sorrie if I didnt reply anyone.

I just can't seem to get over you.

Hehe.

Well, today isn't that fun.

I had to wake Hidayat up 3 times before he really woke up! We went off to Orchard at around 3 15pm. We were late. ahas.

So we walked around Orchard finding that long sleeve shirt but I couldn't find any nice ones. So we went off to Marina Square. There, we looked around at John Little and I found a nice one for myself. hehe. It cost $35.90! Money, money, money. I'm short of it now.

So before I went home and Hidayat went to meet his friends, we went to MacDonalds to buy a drink. And guess what. HEHE. We took about 10 Coffee Mate! hahahas! We finished all of them in the bus. It's a drug man!

Tmr's chalet day! I will be going out of hse at 9am tmr morning and I won't be back home till around 1pm on Thursday. So anything just leave me a msg.

Please don't walk away, promise me you'll stay.

Merry Christmas. =)

I'm blogging at 11 57pm! ahas.

Well, this morning, I went to the dentist at around 11 40am. In the end I have to wait till around 12 30pm to be called in. haiz. So boring.

Reached back home at around 1pm feeling very tired. Since Hidayat wanted me to go to his hse, I couldnt sleep because if I had, I wouldnt have woken up. hehe. Hidayat woke up at 4pm! Thats long. I was going to fall asleep alr.

Helmi and Fadli asked me out to go jamming with them but I rejected cause jamming everyday is boring. It makes you go deaf!

Jeremiah asked me out to slack too. But again I rejected cause I already decided to go to Yat's hse.

Said wanted me to meet him too.

When I don't wanna go out, my friends find me. When I wanna go out, everyone's lazy. haha. Its the total opposite.

I'm going out tmr to find my long sleeve shirt! So no asking me out. hehe. And I'm not free on Wednesday and Thursday due to chalet. I'll make myself not free on Friday by sleeping at home after a long week. hahas.

Well, it's 25th Dec tmr so Merry Christmas! =)

It's amazing how time flies. It's gonna be 2008 soon! I'm still jobless and O level results will be released in a month's time.

Ok, I guess that's all for now. I'm tired. I need someone to massage my body and my legs and my hands. ahahs.

I thought it was going to end there but I guess it's just a new beginning.

coffee mate is my cigarette. hehe.

Since Hidayat didn't post this pic in his blog, I shall! hahahas.

Guess what. I took 3 more coffee mate frm MacDonalds today! I took 4 yesterday! I guess I'm addicted to it. Damn you Yat. hahas!

Well, yesterday, Freedom went jamming. Btw, Freedom is our band name. December Identity is for the TPY youth club. I told them that its not good to have 2 names. If we become one of the popular bands in future, ppl will get confused. That hasnt been resolved still.

So as I was saying, Freedom went jamming at Potong Pasir yesterday. We practiced Mimpi Yang Sempurna till perfect and practiced Takkan Melupakanmu which still haven been mastered yet. We're gonna perform at a wedding this Sunday, 30th Dec. And today, we jammed at Geylang. I'm gonna go deaf soon. Haiz.

Tmr is a rest day! haha. I'm not going out tmr. I've became a bad boy ever since I've been mixing around with my band members. I keep coming home late and I've been scolding vulgarities without knowing that I did spit them out. haha. Omg man. Fiz has gone frm good to bad. No. This can't be happening.

I want an electric guitar so badly. I just need to find a job.

Chalet's coming this Wednesday! Yessa! For once I thought going out was fun. Now I'm packed with going out all the time and I find it tiring and boring.

I have a big problem to solve now. Its this coming Saturday. I don't know who to choose to go out with. Band or Basyir? Basyir or Band? I rather go out with my band. But Basyir wants me to go out with him and Zaa. I can't be ps-ing Basyir if he needs me. Seriously my practice with Freedom is much more impt. He can go alone. I'm in a dilemma. Someone help me? I don't care. I'll still choose my band over him. I'm so evil! Haha. No lah. Seriously the band needs me on that day. But Basyir doesn't really need me that much. So yeah. I'm FAIR okay!

I thought everything is gonna be fine. Haiz. At least things are better now.

Why'd you have to go? =(

TIRED, STRAINS AND EVERYTHING ELSE.

I'm tired! Tired tired tired! Helped at the mosque yesterday. It was fun but tiring. hahas.

The fun started the night before. Hidayat and Fadli brought their guitars. So we jammed frm 11 till 2. Since there were no drums, we used the dustbin. Hahaha. At around 2 plus we went to Hidayat's hse to eat. We were hungry at that time. We went back to the mosque at around 2 45 and slacked for a while before we went off to MacDonalds to buy coffeeeeeeee!

So we bought coffees and find a place to sit. We played with the coffee. Said put a lot of sugar in his and his coffee became too sweet. Hahaha. And his brilliant idea of cancelling the sugar using SALT makes the coffee taste much worse than before. haha. And then the fun starts. We took lots of sugar, coffee mate and salt. Hidayat just ate the coffee mate like that. He told me to try and I tried. hahahaa! It's nice. Everyone tried too. Said put salt in Rezuan's coffee and he didnt know it. So he stirred the coffee and drank it. OMG it taste horrible. Yucks man. I wanna vomit.

Its a good thing that all the coffees are finished.

Before we left Mac, someone took lots of coffee mate. I don't know who. On our way back to the mosque, we played with the coffee mate. Hidayat poured some into his mouth and spit it out into the air. Omg lah. That powder entered my eyes and settled on my head. Qamarul poured the whole packet onto Said's head. hahaha. We all tasted sweet. hehe.

So I and Hidayat helped in the morning. Rezuan, Said and Fadli just looked and took pictures. Khai and Qamarul disappeared home.

The whole thing ended around 12. So we slept in the classroom till 2 45! Wth. We planned to go home at 2 but ended up going off at 3 30. If I nvr woke up, I don't think the rest would have. haha.

At home I slept frm 4 30 till 11pm.!

Now, my body is aching after a good night sleep. haha. My muscles are straining.

Anw, frm that last post, I just would like to say that, no matter what, Fiz will always find his friends even though they treat me that way. So Max, a good line for this will be ................

But where did you run to? And where did you hide? Hehe.

December Identity

December Identity is the band name! Please support December Identity. =)

Rezuan lied to me! Or maybe not. I don't know. Bastard!

Basyir made me sad! I'm gonna kill you.

Friends are ps-ers. I wonder who is Hafiz to them.

I wonder why I'm featured in so many friendster profiles when I don't even mean anything to you. I got sick of the way ppl are treating me. No worries I'm still Hafiz. Hafiz will forever be Hafiz. I have no intentions to treat ppl the way they treat me.

I wonder why I keep finding ppl who means so much to me but then get a negative reaction in return.

So go, go away, just go, run away

Problems.

I dreamt of you again last night. This has been the 4th time. I woke up realising how much I actually miss you. I just miss you lah! Can't believe I'm admitting it after quite some time. haiz.

Ok. Out of that topic. So the sheeps are already at the mosque. This yr, there are onli 60 sheeps. So little. Omg. Compared to 200+ for the last few years. I think I won't be helping this yr. I'll just overnight at the mosque and I shall go home the next morning. Well, I'm not sure. hahas.

Helmi called me yesterday night, and said "Fiz, BIG PROBLEM."

The band has a big problem now. Rezuan can't go to the guitar youth club anymore due to some personal reasons. Helmi might not be able to perform as he got to go for an operation on his wrist to get that metal thingie out. AND the band still hasn't got a NAME!

So now, I'll be taking over as the vocalist. Rezuan said before if anything happens, he passes that responsibility to me. Oh my. I know I can but I'm not ready. Thats another problem.

I might be taking over Helmi too for a wedding performance if his hand doesn't recover in time. I might be taking over 2 person at the same time! Wow.

For the Claps performance, we're still unsure whether Rezuan can make it. Helmi will make it for sure.

The band still hasn't got a name. But we're down to a few names now. Its left with December Sky, Dreamy December, December Identity, Unique December and a few more. We're gonna discuss it today. We have to get everything sorted out today.

And damn I have to memorise lyrics just in case.

That dream killed me!

Alvin and the Chipmunks. =D

ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS ROCKS!

They're cute, funny, small naughty but adorable chipmunks. I want to watch that movie over and over again! I didn't get to buy the Alvin and the Chipmunks popcorn combo! It was sold out. Their soundtrack rocks too. hahahaha! I feel like downloading all of them but my limewire can't work! Ahhhhhhh!

Ok back to business. I still can't decide on a suitable band name. I need to tell Helmi ASAP. We want to perform badly. There's no Yw@p this coming Thursday. BORING! We can't jam!

I want to find job soon too. I need money. Seriously in need of money. Haiz.

I think I counselled myself yesterday. Haha. Weird but true. Well, I'm totally over it. Maybe not. There's still that whatever lah!

Well, I'm off to find more possible band names. And oh boy I haven touched my guitar today. That's weird. ahas.

Me, I want a hooola-hoop!

Mid December

I was damn freaking tired yesterday night!

I was out of house frm 10am till 10pm. I wasn't working. I don't even have a job. Oops. I mean I do. My job is to prepare for the performance. =))

So at 10am I left hse for guitar. I hate it because it onli lasted for 2-3hrs! We kept jamming 'Jenny' and we still haven got it right! We need to perform at least 3 songs. A few of them were not familiar with this song. They have to learn it somehow.

Before the session ended yesterday, I gave Foto the list of possible band names. He told us to make our own decision. He liked 'Oversung'. ahahas. I preferred that 'False Reality'. In the end, we decided on 'Mid December'.

We went to bugis after that to help Fadli find his shirt! Wahhhhhhh. My eyes just can't look at those great long sleeve shirts. I just want to buy all of them! Fadli bought one and its nice.

After that, we went to walk to suntec to eat! Makan free! No lah. Not all free. Those who didn't have money got free burgers. All thanks to Yusoff because his friends are working there. We even got extra burgers. haha.

Then, we went off for WOODLANDS! ahahas. Wahhh. I thought of going home already by the time they said 'woodlands'. But then, I decided to follow. Walked around Causeway to look for a shirt for Yusoff. He doesn't even care. haha. All he cares was PSP.

We went to sit at one corner and talked about band stuff for a while and went back to Tpy. There we talked about band performances. And that was also when we thought that the name 'Mid December' doesnt sound quite right. All agreed that the 'Mid' is destroying everything. haha. And now, I got a job to do and that is to find all possible names with the word ' December' in it. Guess what. I've got a lot now. haha. Too many to list all down.

The name of a band is very important. Once it is finalised, it will go on forever. Even if someone has to leave, the band will still go on. So yeah. We're finding the right name for ourselves.

Now we're all thinking how we can bring the band far.

Beautiful Liar.

BEAUTIFUL LIAR! Yes you!

I'm finding a suitable band name right now. I have to get the name by TOMORROW! Thanks Josh for listing down some! Thanks to Nona for giving that one too! =)

I'm tired. Tomorrow is going to be another long day. I better go get some rest. I'm off for now.

Happy Birthday Yeos!

HAPPY 13TH BIRTHDAY BRO!

Ok. So he's 13 years old now but he still acts like a child. haiz. Grow up in the mind pls.

I wanna find a job! But then, I've committed myself to Toa Payoh Youth Club guitar thingie! I'm busy. Busy practising to get things right. Busy practising everyday just to be ready. And I have to go to that Youth Club on Thursdays and Saturdays. And Foto said, we might be performing on the 29th of December. I guess I'm never going to work now.

I can't wait for Hari Raya Haji next Thursday and also my cousin's chalet the following week on Wednesday. I'm just too bored at home.

I listened to MCR songs yesterday. And oh my the drums are ............................... no words can describe the brilliance. I'm starting to understand more about drums. At the same time I'm learning more about guitar. I want an electric guitar! But I have no $$$ - Ka-ching. hahas. I need money. I need a job. But if I do get one, I don't think I can cope with so many things at the same time.

I'll just have to wait for the right time.

One more thing, should I cut my hair? hahas. Give me opinions. Do tag me!

My Serenade

close friend

She didnt reply any of my messages anymore and I dont know why.

Liverpool just lost but somehow I just don't seem to care about it because why she didnt reply me is much more impt. Why does this happen so suddenly? What did I do to receive this? Who is to blame? Where is she? What happened to her? and the most impt of all is how can I find her and talk to her?

I just need to know why. It is better that I know rather than leaving myself hanging in this situation.

Everyone I talked to said, "Don't worry. Just get over it and move on with life. She has her reasons."

Yes she does have her reasons. I know that. I want an explaination to why this happen frm her. There is something going on here and I don't know what it is!

Why is this affecting me so badly? The answer is because every word she's ever said, is still ringing in my head. All those things she said, makes her someone who is very important to me. Someone who I could really care about cause she does show that care to me. I owe her just too much. And I feel very sad now.

Just like Xp said, "Friends are important no matter what happens". I'm holding on to what u said dude.

Maybe, someone have sent a wrong msg. It could be anyone. Maybe it's just nothing. I don't know. haiz. I DON'T KNOW!! At least if I knew, I wouldn't be like this.

What hurts the most, was being so close ..

True friend

Hannah Montana's song titled your true friend is very nice indeed.

Seriously, what I'm trying to say is, friends aren't friends after all. They are people who just come and go just like that. Only 1 true friend can be found in a million. Thats for true friend. For the untrue friends, billions can be found in millions. Sometimes, someone can also pretend to be a true friend. Just don't. It isn't good for health.

I can't blame anyone now. I just have this feeling that .. haiz.

My song lyrics is coming true! I guess writing sentimental songs are negative things! They don't let you think positive. And that's why some shit happens. So my point to you is, listen to happy songs! ;)

Guitar club was fun today. Met a new guy called Saiful. And I'm his teacher now! omg. I'm a teacher, he's a student at the club. I have to teach him guitar every thursday frm now on.

And guess what! I've committed myself to the Toa Payoh Youth Club! Foto placed me under the performance mentor every saturday. That means I'm ONE STEP CLOSER to performing! I'm so happy! I can't wait for saturday now. Woooo!

But as I reached home, my happiness fade away. And that was when I keep thinking about stuff. Haiz. Was it some bloody friend? Or is it just me? Or is it just the one?

I'm gonna get to the bottom of this .. Nobody messes with me. Say what you wanna say. Small or weak or whatever u can say about me. But what I want to say is, you haven see, you just shut that gap.

Even if I have to lose, I'll fight ..

100th post!

It's the 100th post of my blog. Grats to me.

I'm bored. I'm thinking too much again. What can I do to get rid of thinking too much? I would certainly love to find a job. But I just want to find the right one that suits me. I read classified the other day. I feel stressed when I look at all the jobs available. Total headache! I'm nt going to look at it anymore. I guess I'll find a job by walking around and looking around instead.

I just realised it's December 4th today and it's gonna be 5th tmr. I've been slacking just too much. Its been 3 weeks since I have nth better to do except for guitar-ing. That was all I could do. And that is what I'm going to do for the next few days, weeks or even months if I don't find a job. It's just boring at home. Total boredom. But when I hang out with my friends, it's another story. Haiz.

My niece who is 8 days old is still in hospital. She still have to stay there. It's so sad. There is a problem unsolved. My brother in law and my sis have been going to the hospital everyday to see her. I want my niece to come home ASAP. I want to hold her. I want to carry her! I haven see her in person. All I see are just videos of her.

DOCTORS cannot be trusted nowadays. Seriously. They just crap! They don't do things for the better. Instead, they do things for the worst. They just want to get rid of all the problems they have. They have no feelings for others. Damn I hate the doctors. After hearing stories about this and that, I think I won't trust doctors anymore. They are just there to do their job, I know. But not like this. No no.

Nowadays, Liverpool haven't been that important. Whenever Liverpool scores, I don't get the same kind of feeling I usually do a few months back. Liverpool is like not a very important thing to me now. I think I know why. Somehow, something/someone have managed to make itself/himself/herself much more important to me than Liverpool is. And I gotta say it's totally amazing. This is the first time I encounter such stuff.

I can't wait for Thursday! It's guitar class again with that drum set. It's so tempting. Ahhhh! I need to get my hands on it!

If it all had went back to where it began ..

sorrie

I feel stupid after doing something I thought was right. That has been my explaination since weeks ago.

And I feel stupid now. Haiz. I knew why I became like this. But you ppl dont know. That's my point actually.

I'm sorrie but I just kept being too aggressive these days. I don't know where my mind is. I can't think straight. I can't look straight either. I guess the veins in my brain has been messed up badly by something. I want to be left alone but at the same time, I need someone to talk to. Someone who can really understand. Someone who can put back the smile I always do on my face. I've been pretending to be alright as if nth happened. I'm tired of just pretending.

If you go, my life will fade away
I love you
If we fall would you call out my name.
This could be the end of the chapters. - End Of Chapters by soon to be local band, MASQUERADE.

Something better awaits me .. I guess.

Are they true friends?

I don't want to talk to anyone. I have feelings alright. I don't like be treated this way.

It hurts me to see you ppl acting that way. I feel left out everytime. It's not just recently but it has always been for quite some time. It bores me. I'm sick of it. I got enough. I don't want it anymore.

Convo with Jac.

I LOVE JEREMYKONG:
ask zhongwei whether u can work with him?

- FiZ -™:
i dont want to go out with xp, zw, marvin bla bla bla

- FiZ -™:
maxim and all those names i haven mention

I LOVE JEREMYKONG:
why?

I LOVE JEREMYKONG:
what happen?

- FiZ -™:
I DONT WANT TO GO OUT WITH THEM ANYMORE

I LOVE JEREMYKONG:
WHY?

- FiZ -™:
nth happen. i just feel left out everytime

- FiZ -™:
they nvr make me happy. they make me more BORED

I LOVE JEREMYKONG:
huh~ thats impossible. o.o

I LOVE JEREMYKONG:
u got take part in their conversations or not?

- FiZ -™:
i rather go to my guitar lesson and drool. rather than meeting them now

- FiZ -™:
how can i understand when they speak chinese?

I LOVE JEREMYKONG:
that bad??

I LOVE JEREMYKONG:
OHHH! den u tell them speak english!!

I LOVE JEREMYKONG:
SCOLD THEM

- FiZ -™:
cmon, i told them so many times

- FiZ -™:
since long ago

- FiZ -™:
everyone is like, seem to ignore me now

I LOVE JEREMYKONG:
the people u always jam with?

- FiZ -™:
i feel as if i'm a bad friend. I'm bad. ahhh. i've nvr been good. and i'll nvr be one now

- FiZ -™:
the ppl who i always jam with makes me sad

- FiZ -™:
i just feel that. i have nth left in this world. i just wanna

- FiZ -™:
commit suicide

I LOVE JEREMYKONG:
OOOIE. dont think until this far

I LOVE JEREMYKONG:
like that only wna commit suicide!

I LOVE JEREMYKONG:
& u continue to remain at home arr~

I LOVE JEREMYKONG:
u`ll get depression one ok!

I LOVE JEREMYKONG:
I COME BACK SINGAPORE U FIND JOB WITH ME OK?

- FiZ -™:
when u coming back?

I LOVE JEREMYKONG:
7th.

- FiZ -™:
i am going through depression anw

- FiZ -™:
frm friends to her to my jamming friends.

- FiZ -™:
to my brother, my sister

I LOVE JEREMYKONG:
no. i wont let u go into depression. its not funny ok

- FiZ -™:
they just get under my nerves!

I just feel sad lah. I don't even wanna talk to anyone. I don't feel like talking to anyone. I don't want to hang out with the ppl that I always hang out with anymore. You know the reason. You've read it!

Hanging out with Rezuan, Said and a few other ppl frm that guitar class just makes me sad. You ppl disturb me everytime. You know what I'm talking about! You ppl are just a bunch of ppl who doesn't care about other ppl's feelings.

Hidayat has changed a lot. You are not the person I would like to approach.

I would like to talk to Djah, but she's busy. I guess.

Well friends, or just ppl whom I met recently, the door is always open for you to leave if you think that I'm nothing to you. Say whatever you want to say, because I don't know what you will say. And I don't even want to know what you say cause you're not my friends. I don't know you.

You weren't there when it really mattered the most ... except Jac =).

Sincerity.

I've talked to my mum! Imagine it. My mum! Wow. About what? You ppl should know.

I've got explainations and advices frm her. It was cool. Love my mum! =)

Today has been a great day in the morning, but it sucks in the afternoon. Yes! It SUCKS in the afternoon. Get it? I had guitar in the morning and oh boy I had a damn freaking great time there. I didn't want to leave! Foto was nuts! He made Rezuan sing some high note songs. Haha. Rezuan couldnt reach the high notes. And guess what! I joined along too. hahaha. Omg, I can't reach those high notes in the morning.

Foto tuned the guitar lower. So we managed to sing those high note songs quite well. And yes we warmed up from there. Then I went for a break with Rezuan and Fadhli. Went to seven eleven to buy nachos and coke. Since we didnt want Said to eat those nachos, we sat down under a block for a while to finish it. hahaha. We were bad!

But at the end of the guitar class, I had to thank Said! He taught me how to add some extra beats when playing the drum. And yes! I can finally play Jenny! Wooooo! I couldnt stop playing the drum just now. It was awesome. Rezuan tried it too. And he said that DRUMS are FUN! haha. He thought drums were crap a few weeks back. So we jammed Jenny all the way! hahahha. It was coool! Super cool!

I had to go off at 2 cause Xp and Tay was waiting for me at Tpy! Ahhh. It was boring with them. BORING. I'm never going out with Xp or Tay or both of them together again. Maybe it was still quite ok but if MARVIN comes along, its a NOOO! See this guys! Rmb. NO! I dont want to go out with you ppl ever again. I didnt say never. =P

Rezuan called me at 7! He said he took some application forms so that we could fill it in in order to perform at some places! Wow! It's DAMN COOL. I WANT to perform. I NEED to perform. The problem is just that, I couldnt find a real band to perform with. I WANT to perform with a BAND someday. It's just my dream right now when I've got nth to do waiting for my O's results! We're gonna discuss it with Foto on Thursday! Woooooooooooo! I can't wait to get a chance to perform in front of so many ppl. It gives me the pleasure!

To any bands out there, if you need any guitarist, I'm here! I'm always available. Remember. ALWAYS!

My sincerity is more than just words or actions.