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Happy B'dae to me!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

Ok. I'm 17 years old now. I can't imagine it. hahaha.

Yesterday, I went out with my band members after the jamming session at the Youth Club. We went to Boon at Potong Pasir to jam. It was great! Awesome! We managed to play 5-6 songs! It's a big achievement for us. Now, we just have to practice the songs and master the songs that we play. Lots of ppl were looking at us through the glass panel. We feel so honoured. hahah. Rezuan made the room explode into emotions. I and Helmi was jumping around having fun when playing 'Mimpi Yang Sempurna'. Hafizh was smiling while playing the drums. And Yusoff always try to find a chance to beat Rezuan up for making us laugh. haha. It was just great!

After jamming, we went to BK at marina square where Yusoff work. He bought 1 meal for $12.90 if I'm not wrong and we got 4 extra burgers, and 4 extra drinks. And its all free. Thanks to Yusoff. Soon after that, Yusoff went to buy the ice cream cake or whatever it is called. And guess what. All of them spread the cream on my face! It was embarassing. Totally. Everyone was looking at me. After they spread the cream on my face, they left BK and left me alone. Omg. That's the worst thing that can ever happen. Luckily, I had 1 ply of tissue with me. They came back to ask me whether I was ok. I saw another tissue in Hafizh's hand. So I grabbed it. haha. I quickly ran out of BK covering my face. I went to the toilet to clean myself up.

That was the worst bday bash I've ever had! hahaa. But ok lah. Since it's my bday, it should be for fun joy peace and laughter. haha.

I went out again today! This time, it's with Tay, Josh, Max and Mabelynn. They were so nice. They treat me at Seoul Garden. I ate quite a lot. Chicken, fishball, hot dog, crab meat, ice cream, ice kacang .. etc etc. haha. Thanks ppl. =). We met Yw and Xp after that since we wanted to go to the arcade. In the end, we were late. The arcade was closed. So we went home straight after that. Anw, thanks ppl. Without you, this day will nvr be a great day. =)

To XuePeng .. HOW DARE YOU FORGET MY BDAY! hahaha. Nvm, I understand the situation. hehe.

Well, I want to thank all the ppl who has wished me .. (My cousin, Azmil, Tay, Hidayat, Amirah, Afifah, Rezuan, Jere, Jac, Max, Nurasmah, Djah, Josh, XuePeng, YueWen, Mabelynn, Kak Yan, Fadli, Basyir and a few more). It's not in order ok. Well, thanks once again to all. =). You guys are just great! =D.

Everything changes =)

Results tomorrow! Ahhh.

I just woke up! I slept quite early yesterday. I guess I was too frustrated with the night before where I slept at 6am and woke up at 4pm! It's all thanks to Liverpool. When are they gonna get their first victory of 2008 in the EPL?!

I feel like sacking the American owners. I dont have the power to do so. I hope Dubai International Capital can take over Liverpool asap. I'm afraid Liverpool will drop down the table as the season goes on. That is what every Liverpool fan fear right now. DUBAI SOS, YANKS OUT!

I've been thinking about the possible 12 courses that I can apply for. I have 8 already and I've penned them on paper. They are Music & Audio Tech, Film Sound & Video, Mass comm, Sonic Arts, Information Technology, Media & Communication, Creative Media Design and Digital Media.

As for the other 4, I'l leave it till I get back my O's results on Thursday which is tomorrow! I hope I get good results. I'm so so so afraid I'll fail my science. Science is the decider of my fate. I know I had a hard time doing science during O levels. It's all in Science's hands. Oh pls god I hope I do pass my science. In fact, I hope I pass most of them. InsyaAllah.

Im gonna be bored today. I have no plans. It's gonna be a boring Wednesday. Everyone's working. Even Max. Why didn't you drag me along for the John Little interview?!

Omg, I've been thinking too much about my O's results till I forgot that my bdae is coming this Sunday! Well ppl, I'm booked on Friday and Saturday. I still have Sunday freee. haha. Tay wants to go out with me after 6pm on Sunday. But it's not confirmed.

Oh ya! XuePeng still owes me my stufffff! The sad thing is his phone got confiscated! I'm gonna kill you. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! No worries, we're seeing each other on Thursday. haha.

I'm standing still but please don't get me on my knees.

Argh ..

Well, I have 1 hr till Liverpool starts! So let me write a long post. I hope it'll be long.

I went for a job interview last afternoon. Filled in the application form happily and got the job. The problem is, I don't understand a single thing that the guy was trying to get to us. Omg. I have no interest in this job alr. I decided not to go for the 1 hr orientation tmr. Forget it.

My mum kept telling me to go. I got so sick of it lah. I know I don't like it. Why must she force me to go? I regretted not working at my sis' place last November! I think I shouldn't have listened to my mum. I should have just worked! I got damn pissed.

It's not that I don't wanna get a job ok. My cousins and relatives and also my mum has been telling me to just work. I mean, its not that I want to just rot at home. Cmon. This ppl just don't understand. I'm trying to find a job which has a flexible schedule.

One of my cousin has been telling me, 'Just work. Your aim is to get money. If you wanna find a job where u dont wanna work on certain days, until forever also you wont find a job'. I was like wth man. I let him say whatever he wanna say.

Many have been lecturing me with all this kind of stuff. I hate it. I hate ppl who don't understand.

I'm gonna find a job soon. I won't tell anyone. I'll just secretly work all by myself. I'll let my family members and relatives think that I'm still rotting at home and just playing guitar for the sake of fun.

What the hell do they mean by fun? I don't just play for fun. I play for a purpose. I have my purpose of finding a band. I have my purpose of playing the guitar. I have a purpose when I practice and sing all by my own at home. I have a purpose when I bought that foolscap paper. I have a purpose of holding a pen and writing down important things. I have a purpose for taking my time to get to know my band members well. I have a purpose when I go to that youth club. I have a purpose when I committed myself to the youth club. There are reasons why I do things that I do now. Only I know what it is that I am aiming for.

I don't like it when someone comes into my way and stop me from what I always wanted to do. I'm sick and tired of listening to advices. I know what is right and what is wrong. From now on, I'll just listen and follow what my heart says. I won't listen to anyone. Because if that is what I want, I have to be stubborn.

I'm taking risks now. Sacrifices has too be made too. If I don't take risks and make sacrifices, I know I won't be able to achieve what I want all this while.

Well, only god knows. Even god knows my O level results that will be released on Thursday. Haiz. I just hope it turns out good. If not it's gonna ruin a perfect Thursday which I've planned.

Maybe, I'm just trying too hard.

Whatever!

It has been a great one week break. Well, not that great.

I was still busy with finding songs and also the guitar tabs for the band. We sorted out every single songsheet on Thursday at the Youth Club.

The good thing is, I only touched my guitar twice or thrice in this past week. That's so amazing. I can't believe I could do it. Maybe I was too tired with practicing. Well, who knows. hahas.

I went to Ngee Ann Polytechnic with Xp on Friday. It was tiring. The hills just reminds me of BHSS and it's much worser than BHSS. Got a goodie bag with a pencil case inside. The pencil case looks so cool. I guess I don't have to get a new one. We got free donuts too. I went to find out more about the courses they offer there and oh my I guess I'm also interested in the Film, Sound and Video course. My interest in Mass Comm is fading slowly. hahas. No matter what, that Music and Audio Technology course in SP is still my first choice!

December Identity had a meeting on Saturday. We voiced out everything we had to say. Especially about Hafizh's problem. Ok, I'm not going into that. hahas.

I totally got over her. I'm not turning back. I'm serious ppl. Especially Rezuan. Pls. I told you I was serious. Don't disturb me anymore. Those words are memories but they burn. Who burned it? I'll leave you ppl to decide. I know it wasn't me. I can't seem to love someone who has done the same thing to my friend too. Even if she's nice. I guess god has shown me the right way. Maybe it was a test. Hahahah. Whatever!

Anw, do view December Identity's performance at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lKJ4snBumAs if you haven viewed it. Do give comments too. Good or bad, it doesnt matter as long as your comments can improve December Identity's next performance. Thank you to those who have given the comments. It was much appreciated.

I guess that's all for today. Oh ya. I want a job. I want my Gibson Les Paul. I don't care. haha.

Baby just say goodnight, I'll be gone tomorrow.

Happy Birthday to you =)

Happy 50th b'day mum!

Today is my mum's bday but I haven got anything for her. I want to get something but I don't want to let her know. The problem is, I have no money and my POSB card is with her. Omg. How am I gonna get it?!

I'm going out today. I'll just get 4 bucks for myself. Plus another 4 in my wallet, its only $8! hahas. Ok I'm broke. Seriously I need a job. But on the other hand, I do have to think about practicing new songs for D.I's performance. So I have two options. Option 1 ; work and get money and get that electric guitar I've always wanted, OR Option 2 ; live my dream of performing with a band. If I could, I would like the band to go for a world tour in the future sehh.

I'm in a dilemma. hahas. Whatever.

Ok. What should I do? I'm bored right now. I'm sleepy too but I've had more than enough sleep everyday. I think that's the reason why.

Ahhhhhh. I think I'll just play some songs on my guitar.

Even if you cannot hear my voice, I'll be right beside you dear.

Electric Guitar!

I just want this kind of electric guitar lah! Wth wth wth. I totally can't resist it. Geram aku! I want means I want seh. Nobody can stop me from getting what I want! I will get you someday. Erghh. For now, I can only imagine it.

All I want is to find an easier way.

1 week break

I'm currently having my one week break! Wheee! Seriously, I needed it.

December Identity performed last Friday. It turned out well but I'm not satisfied. I know we can do way better. I don't think we all gave our best. It's just not up to the standard I want. But I have to give credit to all of us for making it happen.

Foto gave us this one week break for us not onli to rest but also to think about the band. He really gave us things to think about.

Cheeee! Sorrie for the late bday wish yesterday. Happy Birthday dude! lols. May all your wishes come true. Especially wanting to be with Ba. hahahha!

My birthday is coming soon! 12 days left. Ppl have been coming to me saying that. My answer to those ppl who knows is simple, 'Now you know, don't forget about the present'. hahas. Joking. =P. I'll seriously hugg and kiss the person who gets me what I really want seh. Guy or girl, I don't care. haha. But I guess it won't happen. There are some who wants to celebrate my bday. Well, you can. MAYBE I can make it on 27th Jan. hahaha. It all depends. Omg, and I'm sooo gonna be old. Haiz.

'O' level results wil be released soon too and it's gonna be somewhere around my bday. Omg. I shall regard my results as a present too. hahaha. I hope I did well. It's just so scary.

I'm using this week to meet up with my friends whom I haven seen for so long. I guess I have seen most of them except for Milly and Peng. These two are sooo lame that I can't wait to lame around with them. Ok, why the hell did I even say that.

Milll, make sure you bring the twins ok? hahas. And Peng, I don't even want to see you. hahahahaha! I'm so evil. Joking lah. Just come down for the gathering on Saturday!

It was never my intention ...

SP OpenHouse.

Wheee! I finally got to go to SP. haha. It is the first time I've ever stepped into its territory.

The school is big. Its kinda plain too but it has the facilities that makes me wanna go there. I went with Jeremiah since I got no one else to go with. Haiz. And and and guess who I met there. I met my dear friend Azzah. She was with Syam. Luckily Jeremiah has a friend there. If not, I wouldn't have known who to follow. haha. I saw Josh and gang too! ahas.

I found out more about the Music and Audio Technology course! I think its damn cool. The student there said, there will be 40 intakes with avg L1R4 of 12 points. Wahhh. I hope I get good results for my O's. I really want that course badly.

After that, we went to Toa Payoh. I bought myself a belt frm the pasar malam that is on till I dont know when. It's onli 3 bucks. Budget. hahas.

I saw THERESA! omg. So paiseh. Why did we have to chase her for her number last year?!

And I saw this girl, she's very cute, very sweet looking. hahaha. And I found out on this very same day that lots of guys are after her. Alamak. I guess I'm in the pecking order lah seh. Tkpe. Mari kite tengok sape yang dpt. ahaha!

Everything changes.

I'm bored.

Hayden Panettiere is just soo cute. ahas. Omg omg omg. Heroes rocked today because there were many scenes of her. Damn it. I want more. hahah. Ok enough.

Well, I woke up at 8 30am this morning! That is too early for me. I usually wake up at 12pm or 1pm. It's all because of that dental appointment. I went for the checkup and the dentist said there is nothing wrong. Yayy. ahas. My teeth are all good.

I went back home, took my running shoes, wore it and went for a jog at St George. Since it has been a long time since I jogged, I onli jogged for 5 rounds which is about 1.2km. I could have jogged more but I shouldnt push myself too hard. It is the first time I've ever jogged since 2 months ago. So yeah. I don't want to end up in hospital with athma.

Now my leg muscles are straining. Here pain, there pain, everywhere pain. I also did 3 sets of pull ups - 5 in each set. My hands aren't straining because I always do push ups at home. So yeah. Used to it.

I have been very sleepy the whole day. I guess it is not just because I went for a jog but also because it is the first time I've ever stayed home for one whole day since 2 weeks ago. It is an off day for me! Wheee. I hope my band members don't call me up tmr. I want another off day. hahahaha! But we still have to practice for Friday. 'Mimpi Yang Sempurna' have already been mastered. We're not there yet for 'Empty'. I've memorised 'Tong Hua' lyrics! Wheeee. And I'm practicing singing it with the guitar. I guess I have another hwk to do and that is to write down the lyrics together with the chords. Haiz.

Ever since watching CLAP on Saturday, I feel like performing in front of so many ppl. I can't wait for March! I'll make sure it will be the best ever debut performance of December Identity!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh! And just as I was hoping that there'll be no practice tmr, there is! Omg.

Ok, I'm off to sleep. Nitez! =)

Is it real or is it just a sign?

HappyNewYear, Birthday & everything else

Happy New Year everyone! =).

This is my first post of 2008. Yeah. And I'll try to make it as sweet as possible. hahas.

I've been busy lately, practising with my band for the performance on 11th Jan 2008. It'll be at the old folks home at block 62B at Toa Payoh. Foto has already came up with how the band is formed. Well, after discussing, I guess the band will stick to 'December Identity' or short form DI. Since Rezuan can't make it on the 11th, we have our backup plan! hehe. Aisyah will sing for us. And omg her voice is great. It was the first time that I heard her singing on Thursday.

Anw, I have also been busy for the last few days finding something for my dear friend, Azzah. Hahas. I thought I was the one who was gonna call her for me to meet her on Friday. Instead she called me and invited me to her hse. I've been running around frm bugis to plaza singapura to marina square. In the end, I bought her a bracelet. I just went to her hse a few hrs ago. Well, Happy Birthday to you my dear =). I hope she likes it. =)

This year, I would love to make more new friends. I love my friends a lot. I'm finding time to hang out with them. It's been a long time since I've hanged out with them. I haven seen them for such a long time. Well, Tay, Puan, Max, Josh and everyone else, I hope to see you ppl soon! I've been hanging out with my band members a lot and I miss hanging out with you ppl.

I'm going to the recording studio tmr! Wheee! It'll be my first time. We're gonna jam there. My friends who have been there before told me that I'll get giddy because everything we play will be heard through the headset. Omg. I feel afraid now. hahah. But no worries. It'll be a lifetime experience!

To Rezuan, I hope he really does study. He has changed. I hope that determination in him will continue till his O levels in October. You have not only my support, but also every single one of your friends' support. Study hard yeah.

I hope this post have been sweet enough. ahas. Till then. =)

Sometimes, whatever ppl say can make you change your mind back to where it was before. - This goes to Helmi! ahas. But thanks bro. hehe.