The best way to fall, is in love with me ;)

Smiles on my face

Year 1 is officially over! =)

Time to chase my superstar dreams once again! heeeeees..

And .... There are so many activities which awaits me.

Coming up first, is of course, shopping, which will happen in a few hours time! Followed by a 3 days 2 nights SoE Leadership camp next week in school. I'm gonna be away from 2nd-4th march but I bet it will be fun. Then comes Fairis' bbq on 7th March. Gym is waiting for me twice a week now instead of onli once a week. And there's gonna be a chalet on 23rd, 24th and 25th March at Aloha Loyang with my secondary school friends.

Oh, and of course, not forgetting maybe the swimming meetup with Yw and Josh. And the morning and evening runs.

I'm packed with sports this coming March!

Well, besides that, I'm looking for a performance too! I just badly need one.

With everything scheduled, I hope its gonna be a fun holiday, instead of a boring one like the previous, when it was the fasting month, plus I was working, and there wasn't enough fun before school reopened.

I hope I can find a 1 week job this time round. But its kinda hard, so I guess I'm not gonna work this time round.

That's it for now. I'll be updating after a few days, or maybe weeks. Depends on my mood. haha.

Oh I'm willing to try
But frightened that i'm not playing the games you're saying we should play
And now its clear
That we're still hoping these doors will open to
Our love, our time, our space

Happy Valentines Day! =)

Happy Valentines Day to all! =)

Well, yesterday was the last day of year 1 in Ngee Ann Poly. Time really really flies. It's like, a year gone but nothing felt. It's almost as if I was sleeping for a night and waking up the very next morning.

Finally completed most of the year 1 modules except for EG2 & Engineering Mechanics. These 2 exams are coming soon and it's 40% each. That's a lot. I've got to start mugging. I've been slacking too much this semester. Gonna have study dates with CheeGuangHann on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. Definitely. Whoever else wanna join, don't hesitate to call/text me. You're all welcomed as long as you guys keep quiet and study along.

Did nth much just now. Met Asmah after school and accompanied her for manicure. And then went to meet The Singlez to get the picnic stuff. =)

Well, since today's valentines day, I'm going out with Helmi and Azzah to ECP for a picnic since all three of us have no valentine. haha. Well, at least we're going out to relieve our stresses. I hope Hafizh and Muhammad will be able to come along.

Asmah's going out with mps and Ja is staying home. XuePeng and Maxim will be homely kids too for today I guess. hehehe.. Fairis will be working, and Yussuf is in Brunei.

I think I've got programmes prepared after my exams.

1. I want to go shopping! Look for my new shoe and maybe a shirt as well.
2. I want to perform! I haven performed ever since I turned 18!
3. I want to write more and more songs with the band.
4. I want to go jamming.
5. I want to catch a movie!
6. I want to go to XuePeng's big big big big house which is sooooo lovely!
7. I want to hang out with Maxim hearing all the vulgarities I can such as 'bitches' and 'assholes'.

Before all that can happen, I must make sure I study for my exams! =)

Enjoy today everyone! Take a day off! =)

Right here is the place, for hearts to show ..

Both parties are at fault.

My mind is definitely not at ease yet. But I'm alright now. I am cool and stable but please don't provoke me.

'To every problems, both parties have their own fault'. I agree with this statement!

So, no one has the rights to put all the blame on me. You people should think about what you have done to me too. What wrong have you done to make me feel this way? Did you ppl even realise? If no, think again because I won't be arguing back if there's nothing wrong with whatever you ppl have said. How have you ppl been treating me these days? Good? Bad? Think again, when last time some ppl used to always find me whenever they need me. I know it was my mistake for kinda taking it too lightly when you ppl really wanted me there. But now, it's your turn. Is this some kind of revenge?

The way you ppl are blaming me is like, every single finger and every blame is on me. Don't you ppl think about what you have done for the past one month or so?

Two words, THINK AGAIN.

I know I've been ego, I know I've been sensitive, I know I've been different. I KNOW ITS PARTIALLY MY FAULT. I'm not denying it. I'm too stressed up so I couldn't blame you guys fully. But sad to say, you guys play a part in what has been happening now. Is this what I get when I try to tell what I don't like you guys to do or say to me?

I only want the truth ppl. Nothing else. Please dont hide anything you dislike about me. Say it out. I might be sensitive, but I wont get sensitive when it comes to this kind of thing. Even if I'm a motherfucker or a bitch, or I've been such an asshole, SAY IT! SAY IT! SAY IT!

I will onli feel satisfied of you ppl come to me and say this to me myself. Because that's what friends are for! Pointing out each other's mistakes so that they won't repeat them again. If you don't do this, it just means that, you're not really my friend.

To you, you may think that, if you lose me as a friend, you have other tnew friends to talk to. You will always have a new soul to talk to even if you were to lose another new friend. You think that there's no point bothering about losing a friend who has always been true to you. And u always think that you have the sense of attraction which can attract new ppl to you. You think that way. But I'm just gonna say, don't ever regret losing me as a friend. I will always stay as who I am, always here for you. I give you a promise that I will be there to pick u up when you fall even though you dont wanna treat me as ur friend anymore. I might be a jerk, a bastard, an asshole, but I will always be sincere to you as a friend.

When we started being friends, just you and me, which I thought would never be ...

Don't do this to me

6th February 2009 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY NIECE DHAMIRA ZAHRA! =). I can't wait to see her again this coming September. Hope my brother and his family are doing fine in Australia.

I am so exhausted today. Had school from 10am till 5pm. Mechanics is driving me nuts. I have to study and understand because my final exams are just around the corner with Project Management being the first next week on Tuesday, followed by Computer Programming Practical Test on Friday. I will be having my Engineering Maths 2 exam on the 20th Feb and Engineering Mechanics which is the last paper on 26th Feb. And after that, there goes my first year in Ngee Ann Polytechnic.

Time flies real fast. Many things happens within a second. Gosh.

So far, life has been very interesting in school. There are also the worse and stressful times. Especially when its nearing the end of the semester. Many things have to be done but I know I can overcome everything with determination and motivation! =)

But somehow, my life is at a down at the moment. There are just too many things to say. Too many things on my mind. I hope nature shows me the right path, but I know whatever path I'm taking, I can't change my fate. But I can do my best to let that fate be something wonderful. Something awesome, or maybe, exciting and unexpected, rather than leaving it going as it is right now.

Such an emotional guy like me, its just who I am. I've always tried not to be sensitive, but it just happens. I've tried to takes things lightly, but I just can't seem to do it, especially when it comes to something/someone important to me.

I must be strong and get over this confused + angry + emotional feeling. I know I can get out of this. I have to believe.

Thanks to XuePeng for putting a smile on my face most of the times when I'm down. Although I don't really understand you that well, you just seem to be the one who understands me most. Thanks to Helmi for talking to me too, but he always leaves me thinking too much at the end of the day and that's what preventing a smile on my face.

Well, life is life. Humans are humans. But one question still puzzles me ... Why does a human being start to make a REAL change in life for the better when something real bad has happen to them? Something which really could change their life in an instant. Something which will affect them for the rest of their lives and something they really really regretted.

And my question to you ppl out there is ... Is it wrong, if I try to change people for the better without them having to go through all that pain which will make them realise, and by the time they do, it's already too late?

I'm not backing out from what I got myself into.

When time is taking back, everything I thought I had. Oh god, please don't take things which are important to me away from me forever. Because it hurts, its painful, and it's something a remedy can't cure. What have I done wrong in life? Am I to be blamed? Tell me the answers, show them to me. Such a moment I'm facing, I can't take it. It's not too much for some people out there, but it's just too much for me to take.

Maybe I'm trying too hard ..

Well ...

Knowing whatever I've known just tells me that, humans, in whatever kind of forms are prone to mistakes.

Mistakes are meant to be a part of life, and learning from your mistakes will bring you much closer to success in many things in life, not only in education.

So humans! Think far before you take a step which might lead to great consequences which might be hard to bear.

and here, right here is the place ....

Belated birthday celebration =)

Yay! I feel so happy today! =D

Stick to my 'sort of' original plan which didnt happen last Thursday. Went out with Asmah and Ja today. We went to the Airport, our first destination of the day just to get to Popeye Chicken and Biscuits. That was the first time I've ever been to Popeye. Its not bad I suppose. =).

After that, we went walking around T3 and then took the skytrain to T2 to get to Starbucks. I didnt know they wanted to buy me something. haha. I knew they wanted to surprise me with something but I didnt know they would buy a cake at Starbucks. Thanks! =)

Ja had to leave early and it was a pity she didnt get to join Asmah and me to ECP. Well, next time aites!

Well, thanks for everything today. Love you 2, gubi and jubi. hehehe =)